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i believe this isn't why Alan wrote in his diary all these years or how he wanted it to be published.
i could imagine his toughts being told by him; how he might have wanted it to be--narrated by him, with his entonations and care.
it's heartbreaking to see how life ends, though--so suddenly. one minute you're worried about documenting everything; the next you are experiencing what life has for you.