jolierice99 's review for:

Not Forever But For Now by Chuck Palahniuk

3.0

challenging dark slow-paced

Plot or Character Driven: Character

Strong character development: Complicated

Loveable characters: Complicated

Diverse cast of characters: Complicated

Flaws of characters a main focus: Yes

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For the first time in my life, the acknowledgments and note from the author has completely changed my entire perspective of a book. I'm rethinking everything. Before this moment, I would've said this was a deranged book with deranged, disgusting, nauseating characters and a horrible plot. I would've been glad it's over, and I kind of am still glad because holy shit what WAS that?? But the author's note. Oh my god, I got everything wrong. I was reading this completely the wrong way. Was it good? No. Did I enjoy it? No. But I kind of get it now, and can't bare to give it less than 3 stars, as appalled as my past self would've been. It's a gruesome, graphic book, and I'm embarrassed how many metaphors I missed, but I feel so conflicted now. I don't what to think anymore.