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To Burn in Brutal Rapture
by Nyla K.
But then that’s Lazarus for me. Evil only because of his mystery, and how much I shouldn’t want him. And how good he makes it feel to do the wrong thing.
Have you ever been so intimidated to write a review because you know you will never be able to come close to doing the book justice or even be able to fully express your thoughts or emotions? That is me right now. Sitting at my kitchen table, pulling my hair, trying to string some words together like this is my first time ever writing a review. So I apologize in advance for this inadequate as hell review. I’ll try my best.
This is a story about Tracien and Lazarus. We get to see Traci go from a young child who experiences great grief, to troubled teen with confusing feelings, and finally to adulthood when she turns 18. She loves yoga because it is her strongest connection with her mother besides 90s pop music, and she has been harboring a mad crush on her father’s best friend and also her godfather Lazarus. When Traci is 18, Lazarus is 40 so just know that this is a fairly large age gap.
She’s like a fresh canvas, waiting for my first brush stroke.
Unmarked. Unsullied.
Mine to defile.
Lazarus has had a rough upbringing and it has left him feeling unworthy of love and cursed. His only experiences in life have shown him that life brings pain, pleasure eventually brings pain so he’s always preparing for it. The one constant good thing in his life is his friendship with Damien (Traci’s dad) who he met in high school. The two are BROS and bring the term “bromance” to a whole other level. They lean on each other hard and Lazarus is there for Damien and Traci during their dark days.
I’m not going to go into the plot at all because it is absolutely best to go in blind. I will say this: the writing is damn amazing. It pulled so many emotions out of me that by the end I was exhausted. These characters feel STRONGLY and DEEPLY so I felt each and every emotion along with them and that’s just due to the superb writing skills in my opinion. There was a specific moment in this book that made me sit back, say “this is why I have trust issues”, and proceed to ball my freaking eyes out. That scene blindsided me and Nyla K sucker punched me in the damn gut. I had such a visceral reaction that I immediately put the book down and proceeded to DM Nyla to say how much I hated her but that I also loved her because holy shit this book hit and it hit HARD! I said it in my Instagram stories and I will again: this is Nyla K’s best book to date. I will forgive you at some point Nyla but it’s gonna take some time. I’m still hurting.
I love your scars, your pain, your....destruction. I love your broken.
I highly recommend reading the forward before just diving in. Nyla put some warnings in here and it is up to you as a reader to go over these and heed them.
Read this if you enjoy:
-big age gaps
-taboo
-dads best friend
-heroes who feel like that don’t deserve love
-ANGST
-super sexy smutty scenes
Overall rating 5 stars
Steaminess 4 stars
Have you ever been so intimidated to write a review because you know you will never be able to come close to doing the book justice or even be able to fully express your thoughts or emotions? That is me right now. Sitting at my kitchen table, pulling my hair, trying to string some words together like this is my first time ever writing a review. So I apologize in advance for this inadequate as hell review. I’ll try my best.
This is a story about Tracien and Lazarus. We get to see Traci go from a young child who experiences great grief, to troubled teen with confusing feelings, and finally to adulthood when she turns 18. She loves yoga because it is her strongest connection with her mother besides 90s pop music, and she has been harboring a mad crush on her father’s best friend and also her godfather Lazarus. When Traci is 18, Lazarus is 40 so just know that this is a fairly large age gap.
She’s like a fresh canvas, waiting for my first brush stroke.
Unmarked. Unsullied.
Mine to defile.
Lazarus has had a rough upbringing and it has left him feeling unworthy of love and cursed. His only experiences in life have shown him that life brings pain, pleasure eventually brings pain so he’s always preparing for it. The one constant good thing in his life is his friendship with Damien (Traci’s dad) who he met in high school. The two are BROS and bring the term “bromance” to a whole other level. They lean on each other hard and Lazarus is there for Damien and Traci during their dark days.
I’m not going to go into the plot at all because it is absolutely best to go in blind. I will say this: the writing is damn amazing. It pulled so many emotions out of me that by the end I was exhausted. These characters feel STRONGLY and DEEPLY so I felt each and every emotion along with them and that’s just due to the superb writing skills in my opinion. There was a specific moment in this book that made me sit back, say “this is why I have trust issues”, and proceed to ball my freaking eyes out. That scene blindsided me and Nyla K sucker punched me in the damn gut. I had such a visceral reaction that I immediately put the book down and proceeded to DM Nyla to say how much I hated her but that I also loved her because holy shit this book hit and it hit HARD! I said it in my Instagram stories and I will again: this is Nyla K’s best book to date. I will forgive you at some point Nyla but it’s gonna take some time. I’m still hurting.
I love your scars, your pain, your....destruction. I love your broken.
I highly recommend reading the forward before just diving in. Nyla put some warnings in here and it is up to you as a reader to go over these and heed them.
Read this if you enjoy:
-big age gaps
-taboo
-dads best friend
-heroes who feel like that don’t deserve love
-ANGST
-super sexy smutty scenes
Overall rating 5 stars
Steaminess 4 stars