A review by laura_kat
Daisy Haites by Jessa Hastings

dark emotional funny tense medium-paced
  • Plot- or character-driven? Character
  • Strong character development? Yes
  • Loveable characters? Yes
  • Diverse cast of characters? It's complicated
  • Flaws of characters a main focus? Yes

5.0

When I grow up I want to be more like Daisy 

The sibling bond, the yearning, the badassery, I can't even put into words how obsessed I am with these characters. 

Selection of favorite quotes that speak for themselves:


1) Julian makes us say grace (as though the Lord is listening to him and like He'd actually bless us). - (Daisy)

2) Fuck, I don't do exclusive. Except that one time and it went to shit. She's sitting right next to me three years later like a deadweight wrapped around my heart's fucking ankle.  - (Christian)

3) He started laughing and a piece of his laugh snagged on my heart.  - (Daisy)

4) I lock eyes with her from across the room and she is, I cannot stress this enough, stupid hot.  - (Christian)

5) She's got honeypots for eyes.  - (Christian)

6) A silence hovers between us. We have silences a lot. I like them usually. Usually with her being quiet feels like I'm alone, and I never feel like I'm alone when I'm with someone else.  - (Christian)

7) Anyway, I'm at the Park Lane house, Henry, Jo, and Jules are all playing GTA and Hen's complaining about them having unfair advantages considering our familial backgrounds.  - (Christian)

8) "I won't let anything happen to you." I'll never let anything happen to her. Not a day in her life. - (Julian)

9) None of that shit worries me, what worries me is keeping my sister alive. She is the pressure point and there is nothing I can do about it. Can't get rid of her, can't love her less -she's just this wide, exposed, gaping nerve I have for the whole fucking world to press on.  - (Julian)

10) I know me and her have a weird relationship, somewhere between my sister, my kid, and my best friend. She might be all of the above, but of all the things she is to me she is absolutely and irrevocably my way home. The way I can tell right from wrong, good from bad -if Daisy likes someone, they're worth your time; if she doesn't they can take a fucking hike. Her instincts are insane, and I want to say it's innate but it might be learned and then sharpened from all of the times people tried to kill her or kidnap her.  - (Julian)

11) She smirks a little. "We don't do jealous..." I give her a half smile "We do now."  - (Christian) 

12)  I don’t know what good fortune my fates found to weave into my life right now, but I find myself slow-dancing with Christian Hemmes in a laundromat and there’s nothing normal about it— The universe, actually, is ablaze. The planets lose track of their orbits, the birds are poets now and all the songs written before this and all the ones that’ll come after this are about this moment; about how when we’re standing my ear rests right where his heart is, how one hand of his swallows a whole half of my waist. The beautiful nothingness of this, the most intimate moment of my life to date, a life that, actually, has been dotted with much intimacy and I think nothing will ever beat him resting his chin on top of my head.   - (Daisy)

13) His gaze is so much, it's so weighted and heavy with a new sort of want that I can't even look at him because I'm a flower and he's the whole entire sun and he'll wilt me away, I know he will.  - (Daisy)

14) I think I understand for a fleeting moment why everything that's bad and painful and sad is worth it if you love someone, because I'll remember how he's looking at me now forever.  - (Daisy)

15) I know your freckles too.  - (Christian)

16) I've never felt like this and it's now, right now, this exact second that I realise I am in love with Daisy Haites. And then it is immediately after, in that exact second, that I realise I've lost her.  - (Christian)

17) Do you know much about supernovas? No? Just me then? There are two types. Type one is when the star accumulates matter from a neighboring star until it ignites a nuclear reaction. Type two is when the star runs out of nuclear fuel and collapses under its own gravity. Mx heart is a type two supernova. I loved him so much, so quickly, too soon, and now it's done and I'm collapsing under the weight of it all. I'm imploding.  -(Daisy) 

18) Christian is the artillery shell that tore my life to pieces just because I loved him how I did and so now I think I hate him for it. I feel the absence of him in my life the way you can feel the sun slip behind a cloud and wish you were fifteen again, full of stupid hope and unbroken and able to love properly, but here we are.  - (Daisy)

19) I didn't know I love him in the sort of way where when you lose them you lose you too.  - (Daisy)

20) You made me fall in love without you.  - (Daisy)

21) And it doesn't sound like much, I know, but if my heartbreak was a fever, my brother is the cool cloth they'd lay on my forehead.  - (Daisy)

22) I'm my brother's keeper, and I've lost him.  - (Daisy)

23)  I take a staggered breath, act like me understanding why she’s saying what she’s saying makes it hurt less but it doesn’t—just push me in front of a fucking train, why don’t you, but I nod a couple of times instead. Try on for size that old adage of if you love someone, let them go. Even if you’ve just gotten them, which I have, even if you hate how the world feels without them—which I do, I know that now. It’s a hollow in me, where she used to lie on my chest at night, feel her gone like how you feel dust and dirt hit your face on a windy day. I don’t want to let her go—I didn’t even want to love her in the first place, but here we are and I do, and I wouldn’t take it back now. Couldn’t. Even if I could, I couldn’t, because I’ll love her ’til I die. Whether I have her or not, whether she wants me back or not, I’m in, even if she’s out.   - (Christian)