A review by fischers_reads
This Far: My Story of Love, Loss, and Embracing the Light by Allison Holker

Where do I begin... This whole story isn't one to review lightly or really even to review at all. I wasn't even going to read it but with all the articles being posted I wanted to hear it all myself.  It's devastating what Allison and her kids, along with Stephen's family went through by him taking his own life. I can't say much on the topic, it's one of those "if you haven't lived it, then you don't understand" types of things. However, I question why she wrote this book and aired out all she did about Stephen, knowing he was no longer here to defend himself. Yes, she was married to him but it wasn't HER story to tell.  At one point in the book, she mentions how she didn't want an autopsy because then the whole world would know he was a cannabis user. Then she proceeds to write this long book talking about all the bad things Stephen did while alive. That doesn't sit well with me and makes me very disappointed in her. Not to mention she sheltered her kids from so much but now they will be able to read this book one day and it very well might change the view they have on their father. That's not fair to them. That's not fair to Stephen. Even after reading this book I still look at tWitch like he was a huge light in the entertainment industry and it breaks my heart that he was unable to conquer the demons he so clearly was dealing with. I have always thought unaliving yourself was a very selfish way to go and I stand by that. I also know that if I was in the public eye and the love of my life and best friend did this that I know damn well I wouldn't write a book about it and air out all his dirty laundry for everyone to read and judge. It's disgusting.