4.0

This was just heartbreaking, and it will stick with me for a long while. The fact Maddy started college only a year before I did hit hard; it could've just as easily been someone I knew. On one hand, I'm empathetic to the memory of Maddy, because who among us wouldn't be mortified that their private text messages, emails, and notes/documents were put on display for the world to dissect? On the other, the author does a wonderful job telling her story in a respectful way and unpacks several factors that can compound mental illness, particularly for young adults, without overspeculating or trying to pinpoint a single cause of Maddy's death. The message is clear: depression can affect anyone, in different ways, no matter how "perfect" things appear on the surface. The metaphor of the rug weavers seeing imperfections not as "weakness," but as uniqueness and beauty, is such a healthier way of looking at the world, and people. Unfortunately, not enough of us see it that way. As a final note, I especially appreciated Fagan's vulnerability and openness about her own struggles with mental health. You can just feel there's a connection between her and Maddy, as crazy as that sounds, that resonates throughout. On some level, I think everyone living in our world today can connect with Maddy's story too.