A review by bluebeardswife
We Are the Ants by Shaun David Hutchinson

5.0

this was a very needed reread and i’m really glad this book exists.

i love henry and the way he interacts with people, especially with his nana. his present to her makes me cry like a baby every. fucking. time.

i love audrey and how she doesn’t gives up on henry even they aren’t really back to being friends. she cares for him and understands some of what he is feeling, since she feels it too. she helps him and is always there, even when he doesn’t want anyone to be. AND SHE FREAKING TRASHED THE ******* = my queen

i love diego and how he is delicate and caring around henry, even when he is challenging him. making him try new things. diego cares for him making henry laugh and enjoy the little things even when he thinks he won’t. he gives henry a piece of something he lost with jesse.

the teacher!!! she doesn’t appear a lot but she reminded me of one of my high school teachers so i loved her right away.

his mom and nana are very sweet and i liked them, but there isn’t a lot i can say without giving spoilers.

i liked zooey and i think her character was really interesting and gave more layers to some parts of the story and henry’s brother.

this book does a great job portraying someone that has depression and is dealing with grief. it feels real. reading about every thought henry had about himself or about life was like looking myself in the mirror. henry experiences every grieving stage and in the end, even when he is starting to feel more ok and learning to like life again, he is still grieving. and that’s okay. because when someone you love dies, they take a part of you with them. life is not the same and trying to live without that part of you feels impossible.

and that’s what i love about this book: it shows that life won’t be the same because that person is gone but it doesn’t mean it’s not a life worth living.

it hurts thinking that you won’t have another day with that person, that you won’t be able to say “i love you” one more time. they took something from you, but missing them means you took a part of them with you for life. that no matter where you go or how you are doing, they will always be there with you.

it’s okay to feel like crap some days. to just lay in bed and cry because you miss someone so much it hurts. it’s more than okay. there are bad days and good days.
the thing to remember is that the bad days become more and more bearable with time, especially when you have someone with you, someone that can make things a little bit less shitty.

i love seeing ya books that deal with mental health in a realistic way, showing that therapy and talking with others is a need. you need human connections. you need help.

we are the ants continues to be one of my favorites