Plot or Character Driven:
A mix
Strong character development:
No
Loveable characters:
Yes
Diverse cast of characters:
Yes
Flaws of characters a main focus:
Yes
this is the most fucked up book i’ve ever read but i hung onto every word. i found myself rereading a page, three pages, ten pages, just going back, rereading it over again to make sure i absorbed all the information. let the shock hit me over and over again. it was so hard not to. i wanted to know everything that happened, make sure i didn’t miss anything. reading this made me feel like Willem and Andy and Harold; trying to get the information out of Jude, the stories of what happened in his past. i almost googled what happened mid book, that’s how on edge i was, but somehow i managed to resist. i’m not one for trigger warnings but this book needs like 40 different ones, about everything imaginable . if you are an empath this book is going to be so hard to read. it’s about abuse and hurting and SH and SA and domestic assault. everything that Jude has gone through is absolutely terrible. he can never catch a break. i cried so much reading this book. i would recommend it but seriously i dont even know if its worth putting yourself through the torture of reading this, it made me so depressed and emotional. i feel like I know these characters; that they’re my friends and im going through life with them and learning about everything that made them who they were. this book is also like 800+ pages but honestly im glad that it was so long and the author didnt skip out on telling us any information. he told us everything we needed to know, nothing was left out. the ending was so sad. i sobbed. the twist- that shocking, horrible twist- left me speechless. i wanted to hug each and every character and just hold them.
im glad i bought this book and didnt read this from the library, because even though it’s so long i already know that im going to read it again and again throughout my life. this book feels like self mutilation and torture and as much as i cried and as much as it hurt me i loved it so so much.
Graphic: Ableism, Adult/minor relationship, Body horror, Body shaming, Bullying, Cancer, Child abuse, Child death, Chronic illness, Death, Domestic abuse, Drug abuse, Drug use, Eating disorder, Emotional abuse, Gore, Infidelity, Mental illness, Panic attacks/disorders, Pedophilia, Physical abuse, Rape, Self harm, Sexual assault, Sexual content, Sexual violence, Suicidal thoughts, Suicide, Terminal illness, Torture, Toxic relationship, Violence, Forced institutionalization, Blood, Vomit, Dementia, Kidnapping, Grief, Medical trauma, Stalking, Car accident, Suicide attempt, Death of parent, Fire/Fire injury, Gaslighting, Toxic friendship, Abandonment, Sexual harassment, Injury/Injury detail