4.0

Bruh this story. I cannot wrap my head around the fact that this REALLY happened. like it read like a fictional ya dystopian novel but this was someone's ACTUAL CHILDHOOD. The amount of pain, truama, horror, they experiences I literally cannot fathom. And the fact that I MET this man and he was so happy and full of life and making jokes about why he was so good at paintball like ??? HOW. absolutely insane. How is it that the people who have been through the worst shit have the best outlook on life. It's incredible. He ended the book so beautifully too like the story about the monkey, being willing to sacrifice someone he loves so know one else will have to experience that horror is MINDblowing, to be that compassionate and just a freaking amazing person like whaaaat.