ibara94 's review for:

4.0

This book was a slow read. I'm notoriously terrible at finishing nonfiction books, but I knew I needed to keep coming back to this one.

Allison's raw depiction of how her life changed one day after a nightmare is gripping, as the fears and challenges grow. Her parents are at a loss as to how they can help her, or even if they should mention the changes they see in her. Her classmates and friends shy away, and she continues her crusade to keep her family and herself alive, as the dark voice inside her head demands more and more sacrifices.

At first it's avoiding cracks. Counting steps. Trading food for when she makes a mistake. Soon it's almost all her clothes, pencils, schoolwork, more and more of her life taken away for the sake of appeasing the voice in her head, keeping her free from cancer or worse.

When she finally gets help, the release is so powerful. Not that it happens at once - healing takes time, as does teaching yourself to combat something that feels so inevitable. Allison's battle with OCD is moving, and she's a great advocate for getting help when you need it. For realizing you have a problem, but also learning that you can get help and how important that is.

I'm always looking for books that talk about people who struggle with mental health, and this one is definitely one that more people should read if they're dealing with OCD. You may find yourself in the pages, and hopefully, that'll be one of the first steps in helping you make your next move.