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Deposing Nathan by Zack Smedley
5.0

I don’t even know what I can say about Deposing Nathan; that it’s impossible deep? That it makes my heart hurt and my eye burn? That it was dark and challenging, and I loved every second of it?

‘Nate never imaged that he would be attacked by his best friend, Cam.’

The book starts at the end, at a deposition in which Nathan is given this testimony about his relationship with Cam and how he ended up in the hospital, beaten and stabbed. The bravery of Nate telling strangers, his parents, and Cam’s parents every single detail of their time together, from when they met, to New Year’s Eve, to the Beach Party up to the night where everything ended. Nate and Cam are flawed people; their world is hard, brutal, and dark. They are not safe, but they do have each other, as bad as they are for each other.

Deposing Nathan covers a wide range of issues; abuse, sexuality, homophobia, biphobia, religion, first love, heartbreak. It holds nothing back; every dark thought is expressed; every soft moment is shown. Fear is a cloud over almost every word. Safely put, this book is not for the faint-hearted, but it is brilliant. I loved how it was written, flicking between past and present, living inside Nate’s head. I’m impressed by how deeply this book made me feel, and I honestly don’t understand how I waited so long to read it.