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It’s late August - 2011. I’m sitting in my first orchestra class of jr. high. I’m chatting with my friends, nervous and excited to meet the new teacher and get started. The teacher calls for our attention for roll call and asks us to stand when our name is called. Eventually, he gets to the Ts. It’s almost my turn. 

“Emilee Thomas?”

I stand up. Excited and nervous. 

But wait. 

I’m not the only one standing. 

I look to my right and in the front of the classroom, another girl is standing up! What! 

We lock eyes in surprise. And then everyone gives a sort of chuckle. My teacher shrugs and is all - “well, I guess we have two!” 

I had never seen her before. 

Had I found…my double? 

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Okay, all drama aside, this book was chaotic! You hardly know what’s going on half the time, and the main character is a bit mad. And it’s hard to tell what’s real and what’s not real. At first I was a little bit bored, but as the novel went on I came to enjoy the confusion. And I liked the ending! Woohoo! 

I think Dostoevsky’s goal was to focus on the psychology of his main character, but I’m going to go ahead and choose to see it as a fantasy-esque horror story. Cuz, why not? 

Also, I might be crazy but I thought this book was funny sometimes. Not sure if it was supposed to be. 

Oh, and the other Emily Thomas is way cool and nice. We ended up being stand partners a few times! She didn’t turn out to be a sinister enemy. Thank goodness!