A review by katiesendlesstbr
Satellite Love by Genki Ferguson

5.0

One of my favorite songs in the entire world is Walt Grace's Submarine Test, January 1967. It is a song by John Mayer, who is already one of my favorite song writers, but it stands apart from even his other works from how different it is. That almost feels fitting, given what the song talks about. It's a narrative, unlike most of Mayer's repertoire, about a man who is driven to build a submarine in his basement. I won't spoil the full story of the song, but it's a song about loneliness/alienation, and the passionate yet misguided drive that those feelings that can give a person. And I bring this up because Satellite Love is not only similar in story and theme, but it also gives me the same feelings and I love it just as much.

What Genki Ferguson has done here is incredible. He gives you a cast of characters that your heart can't help but go out to. I tabbed and annotated the hell out of my copy, marking every sentence and passage that gave me that feeling that my heart was being crushed. The space motif is not only displayed beautifully in the title and cover, but used excellently throughout the story. The descent of our main character into her own pain and self-sabotaging behavior is so painful to watch and you want to yell at her about all the love that she cannot see, yet you can completely understand how and why she has gotten to this place. This novel is a beautiful meditation on loneliness, existence and the love that is there even when you cannot see it, and it is already one of my favorite books of the year, and maybe ever.