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First, Become Ashes by K.M. Szpara
adventurous
challenging
dark
emotional
funny
hopeful
sad
tense
fast-paced
- Plot- or character-driven? A mix
- Strong character development? Yes
- Loveable characters? It's complicated
- Diverse cast of characters? Yes
- Flaws of characters a main focus? Yes
2.5
* I was sent a physical ARC by the publisher in exchange for an honest review*
So let me start off with the good things, the things I actually enjoyed about the book. I liked the inclusion of a content warning page prior to the actual title page of the book. I think all books that have triggering content should include these content warning pages. There's nothing worse than reading a book and suddenly coming across something upsetting. So it's safe to say that I believe if a reader gets offended by anything that is warned on the content warning page, it is 100% on them and not the author. (The emboldened words at the bottom of the summary are the same on the content warning page, in case you were curious for the trigger warnings). In terms of the actual content of the book, I vibe with Szpara's writing. I think that his writing is very accessible and simple, but effective. When I say that the writing is simple, I don't mean that in a mean way. Simple writing is digestible, it makes the story more appealing for a broader audience. And though it was simple, his writing was also very strong and harrowing at different points. He was able to really capture the feelings and the intentions of the characters. Their trauma was not taken for granted, the things they went through were not romanticized. The traumatic events of the book were handled very effectively. There was inclusivity in the cast of characters, which was nice. I liked the addition of the open relationship/throuple because love triangles are dumb. Throuples are infinitely better.
Some of the characters felt well rounded enough for me to become attached. I definitely liked Kane the most of everyone, and Lillian (to a lesser extent). But, me saying that gives some insight into my feelings about the book. If you read it, I think you'll understand. I think that one's projected enjoyment of the book can be determined based on the characters that you like. If you just love Calvin, I think that you will like this book. Chances are that you have a more hopeful outlook, you're not as cynical and you can accept the premise this book begins to shift into in the latter half. This is where I start to get really negative.
I have to start my criticisms by saying that I think this book should have been 150-200 pages longer. I feel like most of my qualms would have been solved if it could have only been longer. If you took the chunk of Docile that almost made it too long and tacked it onto this one, it would've been much better. By this I mean the court case. I went into Docile not expecting a trial whereas I needed one for First Become Ashes and I didn't get it. I have so many questions about the cult, Nova, and what happened afterward. It was disappointing to me to never understand the true breadth of the Fellowship of the Anointed, that was what I really wanted the most. If it had had those extra 150-200 pages, then we could've gotten not only the trial, we could have seen some more healing for the characters. They went through so much and we only get a glimpse into the healing and that was mainly Lark (although not as much as I would've liked, which I will get into later).
I just could not understand the purpose of the book. I went into it expecting one thing, and I came out of it unclear what I was meant to get out of it. I don't know if magic was meant to be real. I did NOT want magic to be real. It felt to me, that if magic was real, then Nova won. It felt like justification for all of the awful things that these cult members went through. That obviously was not the point. The point was probably something more hopeful, more in the vein of "magic isn't real because of the pain, rather it exists in spite of it." But that just wasn't how I felt at all. If magic had been real, I would've liked a much more fleshed out system. If it isn't pain, then what is it? I need it to be fleshed out, because otherwise it just still feels like Nova was justified. Without a specific system (learned or just pre-established) magic feels cheap and convenient. It only seemed to be "real" when it was convenient to move the story forward. On the same page, it felt like none of the character's motivations made much sense to me. They did initially, but it felt like whenever they would have a change of heart they would backpedal almost immediately. This happened with Calvin, Kane, and especially Lark. Not so much Deryn, but Deryn kind of just got on my nerves. I didn't vibe with their whole personality, though it felt appropriate for their character. It felt like Lark never really learned anything. If anything, whenever he would begin to question things, he would be brought right back into his beliefs by something happening that justified his actions (his actions which were intention to commit felonies).
This book is very divisive, similar to how Docile was divisive, but for completely different reasons. This one depends on your ability to suspend your disbelief and accept what is happening. You have to be rooting for magic, rather than for boring, common sense (like me). As much as I hate to say it, I think people that love The Foxhole Court, will like this book. I really disliked The Foxhole Court, but a ton of people love it. Somehow this book has the same energy. Let me be clear again, I did NOT hate First Become Ashes. Compared to The Foxhole Court, this one was much better, far more palatable. But, I'm just saying that if you enjoyed that book, I get the feeling that this one will hit the mark for you as well.
So, I didn't really like the book. I found it to be disappointing for me personally. I do think that there are people who would really enjoy it though. I've seen reviews of people really enjoying it. So, if you're not naturally cynical/are able to suspend your disbelief for contemporary stories and you think the premise sound interesting, read it! For everyone else who did not like The Foxhole Court and is just naturally negative/cynical, maybe try Docile. It has some similar elements to this one, but with a Black Mirror feel. It had its' problematic moments, but I really enjoyed it.
So let me start off with the good things, the things I actually enjoyed about the book. I liked the inclusion of a content warning page prior to the actual title page of the book. I think all books that have triggering content should include these content warning pages. There's nothing worse than reading a book and suddenly coming across something upsetting. So it's safe to say that I believe if a reader gets offended by anything that is warned on the content warning page, it is 100% on them and not the author. (The emboldened words at the bottom of the summary are the same on the content warning page, in case you were curious for the trigger warnings). In terms of the actual content of the book, I vibe with Szpara's writing. I think that his writing is very accessible and simple, but effective. When I say that the writing is simple, I don't mean that in a mean way. Simple writing is digestible, it makes the story more appealing for a broader audience. And though it was simple, his writing was also very strong and harrowing at different points. He was able to really capture the feelings and the intentions of the characters. Their trauma was not taken for granted, the things they went through were not romanticized. The traumatic events of the book were handled very effectively. There was inclusivity in the cast of characters, which was nice. I liked the addition of the open relationship/throuple because love triangles are dumb. Throuples are infinitely better.
Some of the characters felt well rounded enough for me to become attached. I definitely liked Kane the most of everyone, and Lillian (to a lesser extent). But, me saying that gives some insight into my feelings about the book. If you read it, I think you'll understand. I think that one's projected enjoyment of the book can be determined based on the characters that you like. If you just love Calvin, I think that you will like this book. Chances are that you have a more hopeful outlook, you're not as cynical and you can accept the premise this book begins to shift into in the latter half. This is where I start to get really negative.
I have to start my criticisms by saying that I think this book should have been 150-200 pages longer. I feel like most of my qualms would have been solved if it could have only been longer. If you took the chunk of Docile that almost made it too long and tacked it onto this one, it would've been much better. By this I mean the court case. I went into Docile not expecting a trial whereas I needed one for First Become Ashes and I didn't get it. I have so many questions about the cult, Nova, and what happened afterward. It was disappointing to me to never understand the true breadth of the Fellowship of the Anointed, that was what I really wanted the most. If it had had those extra 150-200 pages, then we could've gotten not only the trial, we could have seen some more healing for the characters. They went through so much and we only get a glimpse into the healing and that was mainly Lark (although not as much as I would've liked, which I will get into later).
I just could not understand the purpose of the book. I went into it expecting one thing, and I came out of it unclear what I was meant to get out of it. I don't know if magic was meant to be real. I did NOT want magic to be real. It felt to me, that if magic was real, then Nova won. It felt like justification for all of the awful things that these cult members went through. That obviously was not the point. The point was probably something more hopeful, more in the vein of "magic isn't real because of the pain, rather it exists in spite of it." But that just wasn't how I felt at all. If magic had been real, I would've liked a much more fleshed out system. If it isn't pain, then what is it? I need it to be fleshed out, because otherwise it just still feels like Nova was justified. Without a specific system (learned or just pre-established) magic feels cheap and convenient. It only seemed to be "real" when it was convenient to move the story forward. On the same page, it felt like none of the character's motivations made much sense to me. They did initially, but it felt like whenever they would have a change of heart they would backpedal almost immediately. This happened with Calvin, Kane, and especially Lark. Not so much Deryn, but Deryn kind of just got on my nerves. I didn't vibe with their whole personality, though it felt appropriate for their character. It felt like Lark never really learned anything. If anything, whenever he would begin to question things, he would be brought right back into his beliefs by something happening that justified his actions (his actions which were intention to commit felonies).
This book is very divisive, similar to how Docile was divisive, but for completely different reasons. This one depends on your ability to suspend your disbelief and accept what is happening. You have to be rooting for magic, rather than for boring, common sense (like me). As much as I hate to say it, I think people that love The Foxhole Court, will like this book. I really disliked The Foxhole Court, but a ton of people love it. Somehow this book has the same energy. Let me be clear again, I did NOT hate First Become Ashes. Compared to The Foxhole Court, this one was much better, far more palatable. But, I'm just saying that if you enjoyed that book, I get the feeling that this one will hit the mark for you as well.
So, I didn't really like the book. I found it to be disappointing for me personally. I do think that there are people who would really enjoy it though. I've seen reviews of people really enjoying it. So, if you're not naturally cynical/are able to suspend your disbelief for contemporary stories and you think the premise sound interesting, read it! For everyone else who did not like The Foxhole Court and is just naturally negative/cynical, maybe try Docile. It has some similar elements to this one, but with a Black Mirror feel. It had its' problematic moments, but I really enjoyed it.
Content Warnings
Graphic: Emotional abuse, Physical abuse, Sexual assault, Sexual content, Sexual violence, Violence, and Torture