3.0

*I won this book in a GoodReads First Reads giveaway*

Well written, but honestly a little bit boring.

I think I came into this book not realizing how little time the author actually spent in the cult. And I felt that she built up the horrifying aspects of the cult at the beginning, but didn't deliver in the middle. To be fair, some of the things that went on - the "shutting up", the breaking up of families, the suicides, and the sexual assaults performed by the cult leader - were definitely disturbing. But none of these things personally affected her, and as such, there was no real emotional resonance for me. She glossed over them, said they were terrible, but I never really felt her horror. And let's be real, I should've felt something more for the Paynes or the big reveal about Jim Taylor. Then there was her father....I'm sorry, but I can't see her argument for him being a "good man" who got somehow tricked into doing bad things.

That said, it was well written. And the Aftermath portion was far more in line with what I was expecting from a memoir. That part rang true to me. It was finally about her story and I had a lot easier time connecting to her.