A review by james7634
The Tears of a Man Flow Inward: Growing Up in the Civil War in Burundi by Pacifique Irankunda

challenging emotional inspiring reflective sad slow-paced

3.0

I listen to this audiobook read by the author. I really vacillated between as low as 2.75 and as high as  3.75

The story of the barundee Civil War is that led to the Rwanda genocide are well documented. It’s really reflective of tribal Civil War in Africa and I think is often presented as the main case study in the US.

The author was a young boy during the first Civil War. He survived with his family through the second Civil War that was marked with the Rwanda genocide and he also is a prominent in accomplished academic in the US.

He focuses his academia on PTSD for the Burundi survivors and how modern PTSD treatment can work within the Burundi framework and of cultural views of mental health and trauma. When he writes about his experience with PTSD it’s so tragic because instead of focusing on the trauma porn of incidents that happened in the Civil War he really saw the incidents that affected him from that war via post traumatic episodes which really started to affect him once he was safe in the United States.

His description to PTSD and the trauma that he carried with him is really touching and I found it to be illuminating.

Unfortunately his narrative is presented in the perspective of someone looking back at various times in his life so the timeline isn’t linear and that got really confusing. Is he 15 and experiencing this inner pop tribal conflict or is he six and watching his schoolmates suffer under the abuse of the original Civil War.

So it was hard to maintain the linear event log but he rode with such empathy for people dealing with this traumatic response. I was really touched when he described how difficult it was to understand why college peers would play violent video games and how he didn’t want to make them feel bad for their naivety but how he struggled to listen to his roommates play call of duty. 

I did not realize that the Rwanda genocide happened in part because the hutsu Where retroactively defending themselves against tutsi aggression

The Civil War experiences are tragic and really senseless. It was disturbing when he equated how tribal neighbors became aggressive over small political lax especially when he compared it to his experience in the US between blue and red voters.

The audiobook was difficult to get through because the author has a pretty thick French accent. English as a second language mixed with Burundi words made some passages difficult to hear So maybe the written book was a little bit easier to comprehend