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A review by maggie_desu
Darius The Great Is Not Okay by Adib Khorram
challenging
dark
informative
reflective
sad
fast-paced
- Plot- or character-driven? Plot
3.75
Living with depression can mean getting stuck in cycles of misunderstood motives, of always imagining the worst in people, or thinking they are imagining the worst in you.
It can mean pushing people away because you don't think you're worth their time.
It can mean taking medication to stay alive - to combat self-harm or suicidal ideation - even if it dulls parts of yourself you don't realise are there. (It's probably worth it.)
It can mean imagining that the people who love you will never love you enough.
But depression can be just as hard to witness as it can be to live with. It's frustrating to love someone and be unable to help them.
It's frustrating to repeat the same cycle of misunderstandings over and over again.
It's frustrating to constantly tell yourself that, if you could just figure out the secret, you could make everything better - but you can't.
No matter what, though, depression doesn't have to rule your life.
If you're living with depression, there is help out there.
If someone you love is living with depression, there is hope for them.
It takes patience, and kindness, and forgiveness.
I'm still learning how to take care of myself, and learning how to take care of those I love.
I, myself, am still figuring all of this. It is scary and lonely most of the time, you can't quite trust what you think because the lies seem so real and convincing. It is quite hard to take that huge step and ask for help. It is equally hard coming to terms that you alone can't "cure" it or make it better or handle it, that you need extra help, medication, therapy and other things that can help fighting it. It is hard starting to realise some things about your past and present and making the connections, facing them and be ready to fight them and accept them. Live with them instead of erasing them like it never happened, and you were always okay, great, well. Nothing happened. Acceptance, forgiveness, patience, allowing yourself to know hidden parts of you, all of this is difficult, but we'll get there at some point. I hope we will. But in order to that happen we have to be ready to face the ugly reality, it will be painful, but it will help. There's something like a saying "it will get worse before it gets better" and that's so true.
Be patient, it's hard, I know, baby steps, baby tasks, baby everything that will help you to get there. It isn't impossible, it only takes time and will power to go through it, and of course, having a safety net is very essential.
It can mean pushing people away because you don't think you're worth their time.
It can mean taking medication to stay alive - to combat self-harm or suicidal ideation - even if it dulls parts of yourself you don't realise are there. (It's probably worth it.)
It can mean imagining that the people who love you will never love you enough.
But depression can be just as hard to witness as it can be to live with. It's frustrating to love someone and be unable to help them.
It's frustrating to repeat the same cycle of misunderstandings over and over again.
It's frustrating to constantly tell yourself that, if you could just figure out the secret, you could make everything better - but you can't.
No matter what, though, depression doesn't have to rule your life.
If you're living with depression, there is help out there.
If someone you love is living with depression, there is hope for them.
It takes patience, and kindness, and forgiveness.
I'm still learning how to take care of myself, and learning how to take care of those I love.
I, myself, am still figuring all of this. It is scary and lonely most of the time, you can't quite trust what you think because the lies seem so real and convincing. It is quite hard to take that huge step and ask for help. It is equally hard coming to terms that you alone can't "cure" it or make it better or handle it, that you need extra help, medication, therapy and other things that can help fighting it. It is hard starting to realise some things about your past and present and making the connections, facing them and be ready to fight them and accept them. Live with them instead of erasing them like it never happened, and you were always okay, great, well. Nothing happened. Acceptance, forgiveness, patience, allowing yourself to know hidden parts of you, all of this is difficult, but we'll get there at some point. I hope we will. But in order to that happen we have to be ready to face the ugly reality, it will be painful, but it will help. There's something like a saying "it will get worse before it gets better" and that's so true.
Be patient, it's hard, I know, baby steps, baby tasks, baby everything that will help you to get there. It isn't impossible, it only takes time and will power to go through it, and of course, having a safety net is very essential.