A review by ilovebakedgoods
Special Forces: Mercenaries Part I by Marquesate

5.0

Edit: How could I forget... This book contains one of the most romantic scenes I have ever read. It involves cryptic communication in an effort to coordinate the rescue of a downed helicopter. This scene must be savored. It does not smack you in the face with its romanticism.

WOW. Emotional roller coaster. What am I even reading?! This book. This series. These men!!! This book has so much going on. I want to just crawl in a hole to finish this series like the obsessed reader I am. I want to crawl into this book. I want to crawl into these men.

Torture, heartbreak, heartache, longing, hating, loving, sex, romance, romantic thoughts and gestures, relationships, understanding, confusion, insecurity, insanity, obsession, extreme sexytimes, extreme role play, threesomes, foursomes(?), sexsexsex. There is a LOT of sex in this book and I'm really not mad about it. There is also a lot of story here. There is a lot of LOVE in here. Love love love love love. #lovewins #loveislove.

It seems a lot of people aren't fond of Dan because of this book but I love him. I love Dan and Vadim both. I feel for them both. I understand the motivations of both men throughout this insane whirlwind of a book. I embrace them both and I root for them both. I stand up and cheer for them as individuals and more, as a couple. I want to know what they are doing now, today. Crazy, right? I don't usually wonder about characters from books and how they might exist in my real world. This has only happened a couple of other times. It is really easy for us as readers to judge these men and the choices they make, but I cannot because they live in a very fucked up world, the likes of which I will probably never know. It is easy to say what you might do in that situation but I have learned that you never know until you actually live it and you would probably surprise yourself with choices you might make in extreme situations.

I can't even fully articulate the feelings I had while reading this book. I am once again exposed and turned inside out because of a book. This is what art is supposed to do to you, right? I have so many passages in here that I want to remember. My e-reader has so many hightlights. There are so many romantic thoughts and quotes in here and I usually have trouble pinning down a favorite romantic scene when asked for one but this book has so many. I want to hug this book. I want to wrap myself around all of the quotes and the feelings this story has invoked. I was afraid to read this book because of some stuff I learned about from spoilers but I am so glad I read this.

This series has already proven to me that I will read something out of my comfort zone (mainly book 1) and find myself chomping at the bit to read more and to read it all again, in all of it's crazy, fucked up glory.

Time for part 2. I hope it doesn't tear me up like this one did but if it does, I don't even care. I'm a masochist when it comes to these guys. I'll be there along with them for the ride, whatever it may bring. #scaredbutexcited