5.0

“How strange to write about “having” when for so long I’ve drawn inspiration only from longing?”
What a stunning collection of poems! I already had guessed this would be good because Halsey is one of my favorite songwriters but this book exceeded my expectations. Halsey is an exquisite writer and her ability to capture different emotions is immaculate. I read that this book was so personal to her that she forbid her family and friends from reading it. And it did indeed feel personal. Some poems felt like whispers and I felt like I stumbled upon a conversation that I wasn’t supposed to be hearing. Her experiences may not have been universal but she has a way with words that makes you feel like you were right there beside her and felt everything that she did.
There were certain parts of this book that were really hard to read, things related to rape and people taking advantage of young, innocent and naïve little girls. I admire her bravery for deciding to share this collection with the world, that probably wasn’t an easy decision to make. A lot of this book was about struggling with mental health. Halsey has bipolar disorder which means that she has extreme bad days and extreme good ones and that was evident in her writing. Some of the poems were filled with hope and love while others were filled with despair and hate. To put it shortly, reading this book was like being on a rollercoaster. But I’d go back and ride that rollercoaster again.