biblio_bee 's review for:

Unteachable by Elliot Wake

5.0

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Overthrown by a massive wave of emotions, I was left dumbfounded ....and words ..words I was wanting to say ...just stuck up or got lost somewhere? I felt my knees so weak just like the ones we felt right after riding a roller coaster? I am wobbly, I can't stand straight ..and I have to leaned back or hold on to something... that's the exact feeling I got after reading this book. I never expected a book to do something as nerve wrecking as this. It was... it was.... both exciting and gave me the scare of my life!

And while I was still lost for words...let me share this song that I think was perfect for Maise and Evan "Found" by Phillip Larue :

"Faster than a shooting star
baby you stole my heart
i never want it back
i never thought it'd be like this
so surprised by your kiss
i didn't have time to react

Believing in us
feels so dangerous

When you're lost lost lost in love
you never wanna find your way out
when you're lost lost lost in love
you never want to be
you never want to be found

I feel so strange because of you
i have everything to lose
i wouldn't have it any other way
if this turns out to be a dream
please don't wake me
i don't want to leave this place

Believing in us
can feel so dangerous..."

I just love the way this book was written. I admit I was not really a fan of the super angsty ones ( this one's loaded with a lot! ) ...but this book? I am hooked from the very beginning! Teacher-student relationship was never new to me since I already read books with same theme. I was expecting this to be...well, somewhat similar from what I have read before. I was wrong. This one's different. It was deep, all consuming, words can't express feelings that took me in ..drown me...making me breathless.

It was like I was there , a witness to the struggles of both Maise and Evan . And boy it was really really messed up! I've been cussing and swearing most parts of the book! ( which was really unlikely of me?!) . There's a lot of WTF , and more "eff" up situations! As the story goes, it seems like the angst was intensified?! And it's non stop! I was afraid my poor heart could not handle it...or more of ...losing my sanity??? Ahhhhhhhhhh!!!! I should probably stop, before I burst?.... But no, like Maise and Evan, there's no stopping now!

I love the written words...deep...poetic ...the metaphors...just beautiful! I felt every single emotion here. But what I felt the most? Obsession. Desperation. Longing. Love? All the same time. It was overpowering ... Overwhelming. As the climax build up, as Maise and Evan faced the inevitable. Choices have to be made. To stay ....to flee...to hold on or to let go? I was on the edge of breaking down! I sobbed...cried...

“Out of everything I ever learned from Evan Wilke, I think that lesson was the most important: that none of us actually grow up. We get bigger, and older, but part of us always retains that small rabbit heart, trembling furiously, secretively, with wonder and fear. There’s no irony in it. No semantics or subtext. Only red blood and green grass and silver stars.
“Don’t be afraid,” Evan said.

With wet tears still on my face, on the few last pages of this book, I held my breath...told myself , so this is the end? ....then something happened...

“You’re pretty brave,” the guy beside me said, “sitting up front by yourself.”
The floor fell out of the universe. I was in freefall.
I turned.”

Love. Loved it! For those who love a heavy dose drama and angst , this one is definitely for you!



***Full review at http://sparklingpinkpages.blogspot.com/2014/02/my-review-unteachable-by-leah-raeder.html