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Letters to Milena by Franz Kafka
4.0

Reading Letters to Milena in its soft pink edition made it even harder not to see it all through rose-coloured glasses. Some words you don’t just read — you feel them in your lungs. As if they wanted to be freed, in their own way - exhaled.
  These letters were their only real relationship — fragile, distanced, yet deeply entangled. I tried not to romanticize it, but I still felt it in my chest: the ache, the longing, the desire to crawl into each other’s shadows. To hide from the world and live a small, shared life in silence of secret love.  
  It’s hard to envision a romanticised, joyful ending when you already know the reality. And yet — there was still hope. I could feel it breathing between the lines, soft and persistent. Even as I recognized the impossibility of it all, I knew the ache. I knew the quiet, aching desire — not just for love, but for peace. That deeply human longing to be understood, and to rest in someone’s nearness.
It hurt more than I expected — noticing the quiet evolution of his signature. From K., to Yours, to nothing at all… and then, back to K. again. As if even the way he signed his name carried the weight of their closeness — and their distance.   
  You could romanticize the fact that their relationship existed only through letters — that the written word was their intimacy. But in truth, it is an almost inhuman kind of pain: to live with the awareness that you will never truly belong to the other, nor to any place at all.
A love suspended in language, never in life.
A longing with no home — only pages and ink, hidden in an envelope.