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Fangirl by Rainbow Rowell
5.0

I've been wanting to read the book for ages. I even bought the copy. But didn't get the chance until now. But I'm glad I read it now. I don't know, it just feels right. Like, I'm in love and I need a little bit more of romance.

I read the graphic novel before and fell in love with Levi at the first sight. He made me want to read this book, desperately. Mind you, I also listened to the audiobook and I love Rebecca Lowman! I marked you! I want to listen to your voice more! Also, I was kinda shock knowing Levi is pronounced Levi (okay, writing it down isn't make sense, lol)

While I didn't read fanfic or belong to any fandom, I can somehow relate to Cath. An introverted girl who prefer her own world than the real one, has social anciety, has zero interest in social interaction, and doesn't care about her appearance (at least at home), plus no real relationship experience. If I were Cath, I'd find Levi attractive, but I hadn't the confidence to like him. He is super friendly and is very different from Cath. I myself can't handle him. But apparently, I found someone who is similar to him and while it's drained my energy, I still like being with him.

I was a fangirl myself back then. I didn't realize it though. I was more into character x reader type, and I didn't write story for people to read. I just made scenarios mostly in my head and daydream, lol. Looking back at it, I'm embarrassed with the old me, but I understand that sometimes fangirling, or writing fanfic, or anything, can help us cope with reality.

So yeah, I like the concept of the book, like the conflicts in it, but don't really like the ending. I heard that Rainbow like to make her readers suffer. Yes! I'm suffering! I need something deeper and more meaningful! I need some happily ever after ending! Oh, but wait. Maybe this is Cath's kind of happily ever after