A review by thelibraryofklee
The Existence Of Amy by Lana Grace Riva

5.0

"It sneaked in gradually. Perhaps it was busy with other brains so couldn’t commit to giving me its full attention straight away. It just occasionally appeared and disappeared again. Almost unnoticeable, and certainly ignorable at first."

Oh, Lana. I do not remember the last time I felt this endeared to a character who just felt so genuinely real. Because this book feels like real life. I felt Amy come alive off the pages - she is real to me, not only when considering that no doubt there are many people who struggle with mental health issues as she does, but your writing really did her so much justice.

Amy lives two lives. Her outside life - good friends, great job, possible love interests, amazing overseas job trips. Then Amy lives has her inside life. The voice inside her head that tells her she is keeping her safe. The voice that she is aware of but can't seem to get a handle on. Amy has OCD and depression. They shape her existence. This novel explores this existence in depth - either through her conversations with her friends or the conversations she has inside her head.

I highly recommend you support this author by buying her book. The topic is apt and important. I think this will resonate with people who suffer with mental health issues and for people who have had family and friends heavily affected by them. This book is full of so much heart, and sadness, and hope, and despair - just a rollercoaster of emotions, and I appreciated the ride. My final thought, may everyone have a Nathan in their life.

"I register the light before anything else. No thoughts yet, no feelings, just light. Light is usually a symbol of hope, yet at this very second, it’s distorted into disappointment. It guides to my first thought of the day - ‘I’m still here’. Still a live human being fumbling to cope with existence."