4.0

I don’t know which rating would be the best…actually. 

This book hooked me like nothing had in a long, long time. Listen, I was addicted. I couldn’t put it down. I didn’t drink, I didn’t eat. I slept a bit. 

But 
What the fuck? 
The next section is full spoilers 


This is the cycle of abuse! Caspien was abused and I did feel sorry for what his uncle has put him through, but he has been abusive to Jude countless times! And there was no reflection on that whatsoever? They just got together, happy end? no! Tragic end the author somehow mislabelled as romantic. Also Jude’s alcoholism was put in this quirky/ romantic “struggling tortured author” way that made me sick. There is a lot of stuff being not making sense. Like the whole “Oxford was your dream, Jude” thing Caspien had to get abused for what? Over 10 years to make it come true for his true love Jude. Yet I somehow missed the part where this big dream was even established and even DURUNG his time at Oxford Jude was like “yeah, buildings are nice” “cool vibe for studying” my dude, thats not how someone acts on their dream campus. I read Babel, enthusiastically studying at Oxford looks different. Why exactly was Gideon so into shipping Caspien and Jude by the way if the plot twist was that he resented Caspiens whole existence and taught that kid that he only deserves misery?? What kind of sadist was that old men? 

I’m left with a lot of emotions, and nowhere to put it. I’ll read great expectations next hoping dickens wrote it better. 
Good fucking riddance. I did this to myself. If you have some self preservation don’t read this mess.