A review by vailynst
Possession by Jessica Hawkins

4.0

I didn't realize this was written by Jessica Hawkins until after I read a few chapters. Once I realized it, the story voice made complete sense. I am already familiar with her writing style from reading [b:The First Taste|31558692|The First Taste|Jessica Hawkins|https://images.gr-assets.com/books/1471620645s/31558692.jpg|50459353], and I really enjoyed it. There were a few things that rubbed me the wrong way but none of those aspects are in Possession.

I have to disagree with a friend about this book. This story isn't about cheating. Not in the sense that the partner does not know it is happening. A handsome stranger walks into the dive bar. Johnny and Lola have worked there for years, and it's like a second home to them. Beau, the stranger, makes an offer to buy Lola for one night, from dusk to dawn. At first, there is outrage, confusion and doubt mixed in with greed, guilt and desires for maybes.

It is about cheating yourself. It's about cheating in the heart because of feeling something for someone else. It's about cheating yourself of opportunities and dreams by denying the whole of who you are. It's about cheating and diminishing the raw need to truly dive into another person because you don't want to lose control. There's a lot of cheating, but it's not necessarily in the traditional sense of the word.

I'm good at putting the pieces together. It made this book even more interesting because it made me wonder about how the minuscule bits of info would unravel later.

The story is captivating. Not because it's about a man buying the right to have a woman for a night. That happens. Both ways. In exchanges of money, favors or something else of value. This story captivated my imagination because of the way Beau and Lola are with each other. It's a sneak preview of multiple sides of their personalities and aspects of a relationship.

Love isn't amazing because of passion and embraces. Love is amazing because it adds depth and emotion to everything. It's about how you learn about one another, can you love that part of each other, will you give in to the part that seemed dishonorable or is it honest because that part is true too?

The way Beau looks at Lola. The way he looks into her behind the comfortable, barbed exterior. The way he seems to read her mind and put light to parts that she would not peek upon. The careful control in which he showers her with attention because he wants to make her feel good. Even if she has bound herself to feel like a martyr and awful being for being where she is. For the way she feels.

I love the raw way they connect and the innocent impish play they have with breakfast. I like the hard questions and soft kisses. The desperate fervor to take that is a part of them both. I love how they give to each other. Even if it wasn't part of the plan for either of them.

Definitely looking forward to seeing what else is in store for Beau & Lola. I hope it's even better than the start.

I love the story. Even if I can't stand the name Lola. =P