A review by deerielion
I Want to Die But I Want to Eat Tteokpokki by Baek Se-hee

3.0

The first thing that attracted me to this book was its title, "I want to die but I want to eat tteokbokki." I thought it was funny and catchy that it didn't hit me at all as a serious writing on depression.

This book is mainly a transcript between the author and her psychiatrist during her 12-week sessions and some notes in between from the author.

The author had generously shared her thoughts and her conditions with the readers, and the professional advice from her therapist. While I could relate to her in many areas, it kind of frustrates me how "black and white" things are for her. She is always at the two ends of the spectrum and never in between. If it isn't A then it must be Z. Every other letter does not exist in the alphabet. And this must be extremely frustrating to the author, too.

I really love these two parts -- I find them very consoling:

Where the Psychiatrist said, "When we are sinking in water, it can be a relief to feel the ground beneath our feet, the rock bottom, because we know we can kick against it to rise again."

And the author's note, "Being imperfect is all right and being awkward is okay."

Perhaps because this is a translated version, I find the writing isn't too smooth. I would imagine it being better in its original Korean version.