A review by daturas
These Violent Delights by Micah Nemerever

dark reflective sad tense slow-paced
  • Plot- or character-driven? Character
  • Strong character development? It's complicated
  • Loveable characters? It's complicated
  • Diverse cast of characters? No
  • Flaws of characters a main focus? Yes

4.5

Oh man. Gay boys killing. Can't go wrong with that.
I'm a gentile (not Jewish, hope I'm using that word right?) so I'm not qualified to speak on the Jewish representation in the book. Nothing immediately stood out to me or gave me any red flags.
This book was a gut punch every time I picked it up. The lead character is deeply full of self-loathing in such a beautiful way. The book is written gorgeously--I annotated it and it's full to the brim of highlights. You know from the beginning how the book is going to end, or at least you think you do; it's the "how do we get here?" that hooks you, and the "where do we go next?" once it happens that keeps you held at knifepoint. Paul is a fascinating main character because he's so unreliable but so sure of himself that upon first glance you trust his narration without a second thought. Julian is seemingly full of contradictions and nearly impossible to get a clear read on for most of the book because of how unreliable Paul's narration is--that's part of the intrigue. 
I was on the edge of my seat this whole read. I had the time of my life every time I had to pick it up, but I did have to balance it with a lighter book for my own sake. The only thing making this a 4.5 instead of a 5 is that sometimes Paul's self-doubt & self-loathing got to be overwhelming--for some readers it may be too much. I promise you, it's worth it to power through. Distance yourself and you will be just fine. 
Thank you to Julien for reccing this book to me and changing my brain chemistry as a result. <3