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A review by narcissia
This Is Not a Test by Courtney Summers
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4.5
So when I first found out that Courtney Summers was writing a zombie book, I was all like, "Whaaaaaaat?" And then I read the description and it made more sense to me, because it sounds like it's not really a zombie book, but a book about a girl who wants to die but has been thrown into this survival situation. And that's exactly what it turned out to be. The zombies - they're in there a little bit. But it's not a zombie book. It reads like a gritty contemporary that just happens to have something out of science fiction and horror going on in the background in order to facilitate this survival mentality. So if you're looking for a ZOMBIE book, this is not that. There are a couple of scenes with zombies up-close. But what it is, is a book that takes a look at the monster in all of us, what might bring those things to the surface, what a person could be made to do in the types of situations that can only come about through some crazy survival mode situation. And Sloane, who is convinced that there is no reason to live, is thrown into this situation where everyone else is desperately trying to survive, which forces her to face herself and her demons. It becomes a lot about what the others will do to live, and what she won't do to die.
Sloane is not a character that makes me adore her because she's so [insert adjective for something awesome like nice/funny/smart/strong/snarky here]. But she is very real, and I like that about her. She's not looking for a reason to live. She's looking for a way to die that won't jeopardize the lives of her zombie apocalypse companions. She has to make a lot of decisions, some admirable and some not so much. She's in a world where holding on to your values will get you and the people you care about killed. There are times when it comes down to deciding who one cares more about, who is valuable, who is a liability. Some of it is split-second decision, but some of it is calculated. Everyone in this story has some amount of horrible in them that is brought out when situations become life or death. All of these characters are simultaneously terrible and decent. They all say and do things that they'd probably never say or do in a normal situation. They're selfish. They're self-preserving. They've had to make tough choices, sometimes at the expense of others, in order to keep themselves alive. The precedent for this line of decision making is set even before the zombies show up, via Sloane's sister. But when it's life or death, is that not understandable? These characters, dwelling in their gray areas, captivated me with their harshness.
The pacing is not as quick as one would expect a book with zombies to be. They're barricaded in a school for the majority of the story, and there just isn't much to do. It involves a lot of reflection, a few scary situations, and a lot of arguing and slinging blame and accusations and confessions. But it was still a really quick read, because I became so engrossed in the human nature of it all. The ending, I'll admit, is something that might bother me in another type of book, but for this one it felt like the perfect place to end the story, and I liked it.
If you're in it for the zombies, you might be disappointed at the lack of face-biting. But, if you can appreciate the more psychological parts of a zombie apocalypse, then you would probably still enjoy this book a great deal.
So when I first found out that Courtney Summers was writing a zombie book, I was all like, "Whaaaaaaat?" And then I read the description and it made more sense to me, because it sounds like it's not really a zombie book, but a book about a girl who wants to die but has been thrown into this survival situation. And that's exactly what it turned out to be. The zombies - they're in there a little bit. But it's not a zombie book. It reads like a gritty contemporary that just happens to have something out of science fiction and horror going on in the background in order to facilitate this survival mentality. So if you're looking for a ZOMBIE book, this is not that. There are a couple of scenes with zombies up-close. But what it is, is a book that takes a look at the monster in all of us, what might bring those things to the surface, what a person could be made to do in the types of situations that can only come about through some crazy survival mode situation. And Sloane, who is convinced that there is no reason to live, is thrown into this situation where everyone else is desperately trying to survive, which forces her to face herself and her demons. It becomes a lot about what the others will do to live, and what she won't do to die.
Sloane is not a character that makes me adore her because she's so [insert adjective for something awesome like nice/funny/smart/strong/snarky here]. But she is very real, and I like that about her. She's not looking for a reason to live. She's looking for a way to die that won't jeopardize the lives of her zombie apocalypse companions. She has to make a lot of decisions, some admirable and some not so much. She's in a world where holding on to your values will get you and the people you care about killed. There are times when it comes down to deciding who one cares more about, who is valuable, who is a liability. Some of it is split-second decision, but some of it is calculated. Everyone in this story has some amount of horrible in them that is brought out when situations become life or death. All of these characters are simultaneously terrible and decent. They all say and do things that they'd probably never say or do in a normal situation. They're selfish. They're self-preserving. They've had to make tough choices, sometimes at the expense of others, in order to keep themselves alive. The precedent for this line of decision making is set even before the zombies show up, via Sloane's sister. But when it's life or death, is that not understandable? These characters, dwelling in their gray areas, captivated me with their harshness.
The pacing is not as quick as one would expect a book with zombies to be. They're barricaded in a school for the majority of the story, and there just isn't much to do. It involves a lot of reflection, a few scary situations, and a lot of arguing and slinging blame and accusations and confessions. But it was still a really quick read, because I became so engrossed in the human nature of it all. The ending, I'll admit, is something that might bother me in another type of book, but for this one it felt like the perfect place to end the story, and I liked it.
If you're in it for the zombies, you might be disappointed at the lack of face-biting. But, if you can appreciate the more psychological parts of a zombie apocalypse, then you would probably still enjoy this book a great deal.