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If This Gets Out by Sophie Gonzales, Cale Dietrich
5.0

Thank you to the publisher and NetGalley for gifting me an e-arc of this book.
I had extremely high hopes for this book just from reading the synopsis, and usually when that happens I will put off reading a book in case it ends up disappointing me. But for once I didn't do that, and I'm so glad because I literally could not fault this book in any way, shape, or form.

First off let's talk about the elephant in the room, if you (like me) were in a certain fandom for a certain boyband in the early 2010's you will probably instantly think this is based off a certain ship (because I did at first), however after seeing the authors tweet about having no idea about this ship, and reading the book, this is clearly just a coincidence and not based on any real life boyband. Although if you look at any boyband in real life, you'll see just how realistic this is where the way they're treated is concerned. Each of the four boys were very different to the way their management made them dress/act in the spotlight, and if you've seen any member of a real life boyband seem to be a completely different person after leaving a band, then that's because they've finally escaped their controlling management team. Now I'm not saying all managements for bands/artists are like that, but if any are actually like the management team Saturday have in this book, then I really do feel for everyone trapped in that environment.

Anyway onto the book itself; I loved these characters, I loved how all four members of the band were different (off stage) and how they gradually started to push back against their management more and more throughout the book so they could actually be true to themselves. I loved how the Zach and Ruben's relationship changed across the whole book and those two characters in general just have my whole heart, I love them and want all the happiness for them both in their non-existent fictional futures. When the guys were on stage it felt like I was on the stage myself and part of the band, and as someone who has performed on a stage in the past but also loves going to concerts, it just made me feel so happy imagining being there in that moment. This book made me sad, happy, it made me punch the air and want to punch their management team and just made me feel all the things.

This is a book I'm going to recommend to everyone, especially if you're a fan of music and contemporary queer romances. I cannot wait for this to be released so people can read it and I can't shout about it to everyone.