A review by rubybereading
If He Had Been with Me by Laura Nowlin

dark emotional sad slow-paced

• Plot- or character-driven? A mix
• Strong character development? Yes
• Loveable characters? It's complicated
• Diverse cast of characters? No
• Flaws of characters a main focus? Yes

3.75

I’m slightly torn about this one. On the one hand, it was so relatable and authentic. I felt, almost, like someone was actually talking to me and personally telling me their story. But it was also very repetitive, long-winded, and very boring throughout like 90% of it. But it was also kind of addictive?? I think because we knew part of what was coming. Not in a traditionally “predictable” way, but the most major plot point is (intentionally) preluded to from the very first page, so we know (or can assume) what happens with an important character in the story. But knowing what’s to come made it more interesting and intriguing even with the boring lead-up to it. And it was boring but so realistic that the boringness of it was bearable. And, though I usually hate when all the “good sh*t” is thrown at the end of the book, this is one where it made sense to do it that way. Especially because it rips your heart to shreds. I cried LOUDLY at the end. I’m talking about shoulders jumping, tears flowing, snot snotting. I was a mess!! It was definitely worth the boredom by the end. Especially if you’re one of those weirdos, like me, who love when a book sends you into existential despair. 😀