A review by litwithleigh
The First Day of Spring by Nancy Tucker

5.0

** I'm breaking my own rule of not giving star ratings to audiobooks, but this one banged! **

Audiobook rating: YERRRRRR (translation: loved it) | Performance: 5/5 | Plot: 4/5 | Ending: 5/5

I've been putting this one off for awhile because I was scurred of the emotional wreckage, but I'm glad I finally dove in. This is kinda like [b:My Dark Vanessa|44890081|My Dark Vanessa|Kate Elizabeth Russell|https://i.gr-assets.com/images/S/compressed.photo.goodreads.com/books/1583447793l/44890081._SY75_.jpg|67044583] (but with murder) in terms of sad and depressy vibes and poignant writing. I think listening to it on audio kept me from totally spiralling into sadness vs digesting fully with my eyeballs (I'm a visual learner fyi).

I absolutely LOVED the narrator. Damn she KILLED it (pun not intended). The voice she used for a young Chrissie was top two and it ain't two. She really brought the character to life. The scene where Chrissie yells NO ONE LIKES ME... *chefs kiss*.

This is also the brand name version of [b:Blood Sugar|58517116|Blood Sugar|Sascha Rothchild|https://i.gr-assets.com/images/S/compressed.photo.goodreads.com/books/1629823949l/58517116._SY75_.jpg|86656106]. Unlike Blood Sugar, which is bogged down by main chick's intolerable inner monologue about what a special star she is, this book really shows you how Chrissie's sad af home life turned her into a monster. Without telling, telling, telling, you see how Julia still struggles to live as an adult after growing up without a semblance of normal childhood. The theme of redemption is strong throughout, and may challenge the reader's bandwidth of forgiveness and empathy. Can a child murderer really grow up to be a good person? Find tf out yourself and read this book!

This book is not for the faint of heart. TWs for basically everything so know thyself. Also, I wouldn't classify this as a thriller or anything of the sort. Is "sad and depressy" a genre? If so, this is it.