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Sadie by Courtney Summers
5.0

"People don't change, they just get better at hiding who they really are."

This was a journey of grief and it was absolutely heartbreaking. The experience of reading this and what Sadie and Mattie go through is a punch in the guts. It's about love and pain and it describes this so well, in a gritty way, this all-consuming pain that leaves you numb. The love for her sister is all that made Sadie worthy in a society and family where she never was worthy, the only love in her life gone. The fact that Sadie had nothing left and thus abandoned everything to search for her sister's killer makes it unforgettable.

It left me empty, thinking about all the scars and trauma some have, including these characters. Also, the idea that these people who are actually monsters, but live a normal life and are seen as good guys made me really angry.

The story was fast-paced, I wanted to know what had happened and at the same time, I didn't want to. The format was a cool way to implement a podcast to give the reader more info and to make the book a little more original. Also, it was very refreshing and great to have the representation of a character with a stutter, which made it even more difficult for Sadie to utter her pain. Sadie was an undoubtedly interesting character, who you just instantly root for, you just want her to be okay and find peace.

And the ending. Ugh, it left me speechless. It fits so well, as it's a quiet thriller, full of messiness, but this leaves a bit of resignation and it feels full circle, despite it being open. A brilliant and harrowing novel that will hurt you, yet gives a voice to all the girls that go unheard.

“And Sadie, if you’re out there, please let me know. Because I can’t take another dead girl.”