A review by mojidaa
A Little Life by Hanya Yanagihara

5.0

I don't think I'll ever come across a book as devastrating as this but that didnt make me hate it. I loved this book. I loved this book so much that at one point, I almost wished that it didn't end. Almost, but I knew I couldnt take it any longer. But if more of it means I get to , to be able to stay with Jude for a little longer, I think I want to take that chance. I don't find myself thinking that this book was excessive. Yes, it was highly disturbing, traumatising and depressing and super graphic with every awful event contained within it. And yes, I did have to put the book down every once in a while because I couldn't take it anymore. But that was what made the book so realistic, so...I don't know, so authentic I think? I don't know if this will ever make sense but I just feel like life doesn't always guarantee you a happily ever after, it certainly doesn't guarantee you that you'll get better, or that you will always be healed after what uve been through. And I think Hanya did very well in showing how broken beyond repaired jude was, and how she chose to write about this tragic part of reality that a lot of people, myself included, have been trying so hard to look past it. To pretend that something, no matter how broken it is, will always be repaired when in reality, there is literally no absolute guarantee that you will always, always find a solution to your every problem. So yeh, I loved this book. I had a hard, despressing but wonderful time reading it. Not that I'll ever reread it though, at least not for a very long while. More importantly, I loved Jude. I loved him so much. He might as well be my favourite fictional character of all time, judging from how much I wanted to see him in real life and give him the biggest hug ever.