All I am is an empty shell. I look all right from a distance, but up close there’s nothing there, nothing behind the pretty whorls and brittle exterior.
Graphic: Animal death, Blood, Suicidal thoughts, and Kidnapping
Moderate: Death of parent, Sexual content, and Pregnancy
A central plot point in this book is a virus that attacks the respiratory system and has a high, sudden mortality rate, and the main character's mother also died of a sudden illness. Additionally, on the subject of anti-vax: while I do not believe that the author herself is anti-vax, and this book well pre-dates COVID, another central plot point involves foregoing the vaccine in an attempt to take control of one's future / no longer live in fear and to forge connectedness with the world. This was concerning/offputting to me because of the way it echo'd some antivax sentiments.
I really struggled with the slow pacing of the first half of this book, and I have continued the trend of getting profoundly depressed about humans' inherent ability not to screw things up. Between Cibola Burn and Nemesis Games, we've seen two apocalyptic events on two entirely different planets, and the scale of destruction and suffering they cause is hard to shake, especially when I am increasingly spending my time thinking about the climate disaster and other ways we're messing up the earth right now. I'm starting to feel that maybe this series isn't for me despite how much I want to like it, but there's a minor nonbinary character in the next book so I figure I might as well see how that goes before I decide if I should bail or not.