Listened to the audiobook. It’s brave to share how bad her depression got but as someone with my own depression journey it wasn’t a necessarily helpful listen. Sanchez narrated the audiobook which is always cool but man does she have a poets voice. For all the goods and bads that comes with
Wow I would like to be a Hempstock. Even just a small piece of one- maybe I am.
“I remember my own childhood so vividly… I knew terrible things. But I knew I mustn’t let the adults know I knew. It would scare them.”
“I wondered, as I wondered so often when I was that age, who I was, and what exactly was looking at the face in the mirror. If the face I was looking at wasn't me, and I knew it wasn't, because I would still be me whatever happened to my face, then what was me? And what was watching?”
“I knew only that a dream had scared me so badly that I had to wake up or die, and yet, try as I might, I could not remember what I had dreamed.”
“I do not miss childhood, but I miss the way I took pleasure in small things, even as greater things crumbled. I could not control the world I was in, could not walk away from things or people or moments that hurt, but I found joy in the things that made me happy.”
It’s funny cause this is Samantha Irby’s first book but I’m reading it third. It makes me feel like I’m from the future (which to this Irby I guess I am) so in all the chapters about how men are gross I’m going 👁👄👁 yes I know that and I also know you end up with a woman.
I’ve realized that the book that impacted me the most when I was younger was The Island of Blue Dolphins by Scott O’Dell. And not necessarily in a positive way, it made me quite upset at the time.
I think this book reminds me of that one in a lot of ways. A young girl forced to grow up quickly amidst the harshness and the beauty of the wild. Honestly, I think I would have found this book more forgiving than Blue Dolphins as a child because of the voices of the animals and the trees that support her once she’s alone.
Regardless, I wish there had been a little more about the people from before. Even just a few more remnants. And I also find myself wishing that the ending wasn’t as resolute as it was. It made me sad more than anything to learn that there were no more people for her to find in her whole life. That even though she found solace in her life and in the wild, that a bear had to complete her loop for her. I wish it had ended with her fathers burial and left the rest unanswered.