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“I weigh my options and then decide I’m screwed anyway, so I might as well go out by being an absolute bitch.”
Oh boy.....where do I even start. This reminds me of Sweet Home except it's a normal Tuesday in this book. I knew this would be fire cause it's Rebecca but I fully expected this to be a five star so there's lots of disappointment in here.
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Things I liked:
☂ Healthy depictions of friendship: Ness's friendship with Priya and Cyril is really heartwarming and is portrayed beautifully. Rebecca somehow manages to capture the magic of friendship that's so hard to describe in words.
☂ Wide variety of commentary: This book really has it all, conversations about trauma, therapy, cults, casual violence, trafficking, unhealthy relationships, batshit crazy criminals, corrupt heroes, smart villains, friendships, psychopaths, just everything. I think Rebecca had a lot to say and she certainly laid it all out.
☂ Dark, dark humour: There's so much casual dark humour in here and all of it is hilarious, honestly. The completely detached attitude of all the characters makes for a hilarious comedic background for this serious of a story. The contrast is absolutely delicious.
☂ Chaotic plot twists: Every once in a while when I thought things were calming down a little for dear Ness, a new plot twist hit me in the face and I thought, "Why of course, Rebecca."
Oh boy.....where do I even start. This reminds me of Sweet Home except it's a normal Tuesday in this book. I knew this would be fire cause it's Rebecca but I fully expected this to be a five star so there's lots of disappointment in here.
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Things I liked:
☂ Healthy depictions of friendship: Ness's friendship with Priya and Cyril is really heartwarming and is portrayed beautifully. Rebecca somehow manages to capture the magic of friendship that's so hard to describe in words.
☂ Wide variety of commentary: This book really has it all, conversations about trauma, therapy, cults, casual violence, trafficking, unhealthy relationships, batshit crazy criminals, corrupt heroes, smart villains, friendships, psychopaths, just everything. I think Rebecca had a lot to say and she certainly laid it all out.
☂ Dark, dark humour: There's so much casual dark humour in here and all of it is hilarious, honestly. The completely detached attitude of all the characters makes for a hilarious comedic background for this serious of a story. The contrast is absolutely delicious.
☂ Chaotic plot twists: Every once in a while when I thought things were calming down a little for dear Ness, a new plot twist hit me in the face and I thought, "Why of course, Rebecca."
.⋆｡⋆☂˚｡"Power doesn't make fear go away. It just changes the shape it takes"｡˚☽˚｡⋆.
*screams*
I finished this book at like 4 in the morning and then went to sleep and I literally had a nightmare that Rebecca Schaeffer wasn't going to publish anymore books
*screams*
I finished this book at like 4 in the morning and then went to sleep and I literally had a nightmare that Rebecca Schaeffer wasn't going to publish anymore books
...............Did I read this book or did this book read me?
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I don't know how to review this book anything I write will fall short of it's brilliance so let me just quote my favorite lines:
☂“Oh, if only you knew how many times I’ve fallen in love like that! …’
‘But how, with whom? …’
‘Why with nobody, with an ideal, with the one I see in my dreams.”
☂“… And you regret that the momentary beauty faded so quickly, so irretrievably, that it flashed before you so deceptively and in vain – you regret this because there was not time for you even to fall in love with her …”
☂“ I was walking and singing, because when I am happy I am sure to hum something to myself, like every other happy man who has neither friends nor good acquaintances and who in a joyful moment has nobody with whom he can share his joy.”
☂“In the end all that I’m asking her for is merely to say a few brotherly words to me, with sympathy, not to drive me away at the very first moment, to take me at my word, to listen to what I have to say, to laugh at me if she likes, to give me hope, to say a few words to me, just a few words, even if we never meet again afterwards!”
☂“The story of my life? My story! But who told you that I have a story to tell? I don’t have a story …"
"But how have you lived if there’s no story?"
"Absolutely without stories of any kind! I lived, as they say, on my own, that is, absolutely alone – alone, completely alone – do you understand what it means to be alone?"
☂“I have long been searching for someone, and that is a sign that I was looking precisely for you and that we were fated to meet now – now in my head thousands of valves have opened and I must set loose this river of words, or I will choke to death”
☂“you deceive yourself, and unwittingly and dispassionately believe that it is a genuine, true passion that disturbs his soul, you unwittingly believe that there is something alive and tangible in his incorporeal daydreams! But, you see, it’s all a delusion”
☂“ Would you believe, when you look at himthat indeed he has never knownher whom he loves so in his frenzied daydreams? Can it be that he has only seen her in certain captivating phantoms and only dreamed this passion?”
☂“As I sit beside you and talk to you now, I’m terrified even to think about the future, because the future is once again loneliness, once again this stagnant, useless life; and what will there be for me to dream about when I have already been so happy in real life beside you!”
☂“Oh, bless you, dear girl, for not turning me away from the very first, for making it possible that I can now say that I have lived at least two evenings in my life!”
☂“ Do you know you have reconciled me with myself for a good long time? Do you know that now I will not think so badly of myself as I sometimes have done?”
☂“ And don’t think that I have been exaggerating anything to you, because sometimes I am overcome by moments of such anguish, such anguish… Because at those moments it begins to seem that I will never be able to begin living a real life; because it already seems that I have lost all sense, all feeling for the genuine, the real; because after my fantastic nights I am visited by sobering moments that are horrible”
☂“ It will be sad, you know, to be left alone, quite alone, and not even have something to regret – nothing, absolutely nothing… because all that I have lost, all this, it was all nothing, it was merely a dream”
☂“You know, we thank some people for merely living at the same time as we do. I thank you for the fact that I met you, that I will remember you for all my life!”
☂“You see, now we’ll always be together, isn’t that so?’
Oh, Nastenka, Nastenka! If only you knew how lonely I am now!”
☂“My God! A whole minute of bliss! Is that really so little for the whole of a man’s life?”
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I don't know how to review this book anything I write will fall short of it's brilliance so let me just quote my favorite lines:
Spoiler
☂“Oh, if only you knew how many times I’ve fallen in love like that! …’
‘But how, with whom? …’
‘Why with nobody, with an ideal, with the one I see in my dreams.”
☂“… And you regret that the momentary beauty faded so quickly, so irretrievably, that it flashed before you so deceptively and in vain – you regret this because there was not time for you even to fall in love with her …”
☂“ I was walking and singing, because when I am happy I am sure to hum something to myself, like every other happy man who has neither friends nor good acquaintances and who in a joyful moment has nobody with whom he can share his joy.”
☂“In the end all that I’m asking her for is merely to say a few brotherly words to me, with sympathy, not to drive me away at the very first moment, to take me at my word, to listen to what I have to say, to laugh at me if she likes, to give me hope, to say a few words to me, just a few words, even if we never meet again afterwards!”
☂“The story of my life? My story! But who told you that I have a story to tell? I don’t have a story …"
"But how have you lived if there’s no story?"
"Absolutely without stories of any kind! I lived, as they say, on my own, that is, absolutely alone – alone, completely alone – do you understand what it means to be alone?"
☂“I have long been searching for someone, and that is a sign that I was looking precisely for you and that we were fated to meet now – now in my head thousands of valves have opened and I must set loose this river of words, or I will choke to death”
☂“you deceive yourself, and unwittingly and dispassionately believe that it is a genuine, true passion that disturbs his soul, you unwittingly believe that there is something alive and tangible in his incorporeal daydreams! But, you see, it’s all a delusion”
☂“ Would you believe, when you look at himthat indeed he has never knownher whom he loves so in his frenzied daydreams? Can it be that he has only seen her in certain captivating phantoms and only dreamed this passion?”
☂“As I sit beside you and talk to you now, I’m terrified even to think about the future, because the future is once again loneliness, once again this stagnant, useless life; and what will there be for me to dream about when I have already been so happy in real life beside you!”
☂“Oh, bless you, dear girl, for not turning me away from the very first, for making it possible that I can now say that I have lived at least two evenings in my life!”
☂“ Do you know you have reconciled me with myself for a good long time? Do you know that now I will not think so badly of myself as I sometimes have done?”
☂“ And don’t think that I have been exaggerating anything to you, because sometimes I am overcome by moments of such anguish, such anguish… Because at those moments it begins to seem that I will never be able to begin living a real life; because it already seems that I have lost all sense, all feeling for the genuine, the real; because after my fantastic nights I am visited by sobering moments that are horrible”
☂“ It will be sad, you know, to be left alone, quite alone, and not even have something to regret – nothing, absolutely nothing… because all that I have lost, all this, it was all nothing, it was merely a dream”
☂“You know, we thank some people for merely living at the same time as we do. I thank you for the fact that I met you, that I will remember you for all my life!”
☂“You see, now we’ll always be together, isn’t that so?’
Oh, Nastenka, Nastenka! If only you knew how lonely I am now!”
☂“My God! A whole minute of bliss! Is that really so little for the whole of a man’s life?”
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This was so traumatising. I can't imagine going through something like that and be the only one to bear the weight of the memories. This is finally starting to pick up pace and somehow got even darker than it was before.
UGGGHHHH The prince is so fucking shitty. He can cheat openly and let his fiance AND supposed love be bullied, mocked by everyone but he can't grow a spine of face his shithole of a dad. Jason is starting to tick me off too like do you not understand the simple words NO.
I'm starting to like Helena now. She has her morals straight and it's not like she is in an place of any knd of authority. Honestly this story is less about fantasy and more about how women suffer when you let batshit crazy men rule.
I'm starting to like Helena now. She has her morals straight and it's not like she is in an place of any knd of authority. Honestly this story is less about fantasy and more about how women suffer when you let batshit crazy men rule.
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I never knew my heart could break in just 31 pages.
I never knew my heart could break in just 31 pages.
I was there for the kids and the kids only. Now they're forcing a stupid love triangle and a revenge plot that doesn't even make any sense. What's worse is that the revenge plotting si entirely off screen so when the stage is finally set the characters often go "oh yk that real risky thing i was worried about that could potentially ruin my life, I took care of it off screen! ☺️" Like----- SO FRUSTRATING. I love the concept tho pls author sell it to someone who actually just wants to write a stationary shop manhwa
.⋆｡⋆☂˚｡2024 Reading Year in Review ⋆｡˚☽˚｡⋆.
.⋆｡(22/50)... ⋆☂˚｡
General Goals
* read 50 books, rereads count. (22/50) [Honestly I’ll be happy even if I read like 30 this year because I’m going to be busy as hell]
* reread 2 favourite book/ fanfiction (1/2)
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⋆Reads by Month⋆☽˚｡⋆.
⋆｡˚☽January, February˚｡⋆.
None (I had exams)
⋆｡˚☽March˚｡⋆.
.⋆｡(22/50)... ⋆☂˚｡
General Goals
* read 50 books, rereads count. (22/50) [Honestly I’ll be happy even if I read like 30 this year because I’m going to be busy as hell]
* reread 2 favourite book/ fanfiction (1/2)
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⋆Reads by Month⋆☽˚｡⋆.
⋆｡˚☽January, February˚｡⋆.
None (I had exams)
⋆｡˚☽March˚｡⋆.
.⋆｡⋆☂˚｡ I distinctly remember picking this up when I was like 13-14 cause it was VIRAL back then. I put it down on the first chapter cause I wasn't a fan of the artstyle and I'm so thankful like--------- I think it would've changed my brain chemistry if i read this at that age ⋆｡˚☽˚｡⋆.
Uhh...yeah this fucked me up. It's about a stalker and a serial killer and idk why people have been calling this a BL??? Bloody Lunatics, maybe????? Warning: whatever triggers you, just assume it's in there.
The artstyle is similar to Bastard if you've read it, pretty fit for the genre. But the way certain scenes are drawn is very unique, in a way I've never seen before. There would be some really fucked up shit going on and suddenly you'd be out with the killer, and he's just going about his day as we get flashbacks to the fucked UP things he was doing a few hours ago. This would go back and forth one panel each and...................the way that fucked me upppp.....omg unlike anything i've ever read before.
This is mindfuckery. I was so anxious all the time as if I was the one experiencing all that and the dread pooling in my stomach was always there.
5+++ stars for genius writing and making me wanna puke.......ha....ha....ha
Uhh...yeah this fucked me up. It's about a stalker and a serial killer and idk why people have been calling this a BL??? Bloody Lunatics, maybe????? Warning: whatever triggers you, just assume it's in there.
The artstyle is similar to Bastard if you've read it, pretty fit for the genre. But the way certain scenes are drawn is very unique, in a way I've never seen before. There would be some really fucked up shit going on and suddenly you'd be out with the killer, and he's just going about his day as we get flashbacks to the fucked UP things he was doing a few hours ago. This would go back and forth one panel each and...................the way that fucked me upppp.....omg unlike anything i've ever read before.
This is mindfuckery. I was so anxious all the time as if I was the one experiencing all that and the dread pooling in my stomach was always there.
5+++ stars for genius writing and making me wanna puke.......ha....ha....ha