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Marrow by Brynne Weaver, Trisha Wolfe

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5.0

”The lone hyoid needs no other structure to exist. Yet it's reliant on the life-sustaining marrow for survival.
She's the marrow
She's my marrow.”


This rating is purely based on how this book made me feel.
I have never read anything like this before, and it was intoxicating. It was so depraved and nasty, and I enjoyed it? Holy water can't wash away the sins of this book nor of my soul.

If he doesn't spend years growing rare flowers, trying to match them to the color of your eyes. Straight to the trash.

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A Court of Wings and Ruin by Sarah J. Maas

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4.0

1st read: 3 ⭐️
2nd read: 3.75 / 4 ⭐️
I’m having a hard time rating this one, clearly.


"Only you can decide what breaks you. Only you."


Part One of this book felt hollow. It was a cold shower after the experience that was ACOMAF. Feyre is definitely colder in her thought process, in her emotions and actions, rightfully so. I have wanted to read this side of her for a while, curious to know how she would present herself once her healing journey became steadier and her focus shifted from her inner struggles to the exterior ones. I don't know if it was the narration or simply the plot, but it all felt too easy. Apart from the fight with the twins, everything went exactly how she planned. I had a hard time putting myself in the shoes of the people she was deceiving and believing her if I were them. Tam-pick-me was practically non-present, and maybe that’s the big factor of why I felt like I did. After all that he did to get her back he's just *there, somewhere*. It didn’t feel nearly as satisfactory without more pushback from his side.

The book itself also felt longer to finish; it made me think back to the pace of ACOTAR, but thankfully it picked up.
I enjoyed reading Feyre’s and Lucien’s escape a lot more this time, and I finally started warming up more to Lucien, but him being Elain’s mate still doesn’t sit right with me and maybe that’s why I like to keep him at a distance.

Meeting all the High Lords was also more fun and less confusing than I remembered. Helion is so intriguing, and I’m curious to know more about him.

Mor’s backstory… really? You strung Az around for 500 years… I don’t really know what to say; it feels like SJM wanted to go in a different direction when the characters were first introduced and settled for this. If the point was Mor wanting to keep that part of herself wholly hers after all she went through, there were so many other and better ways to write from that perspective. It didn’t feel genuine.

The end of the book was the best part. SJM, the queen of dumping all plot points at the last possible minute. Slay.

I HAD FORGOTTEN THAT RHYS DIES! WTF! I wanted to scream so much. When will he stop feeling that all that he does is never enough and that he has to keep sacrificing himself? You’ve given enough. Feyre’s pain and suffering leaped out of the pages and bled through me; I was right beside her screaming for him to come back.

"Then hands were on my face. And violet eyes were before mine, calm and yet insistent. 'You’ve proved your point, my love,' Rhys said."


I melted SO MUCH at that. My knees became jelly, and I wasn't even standing. Tampetty having to see that made it even better after all he said during the meeting.

ELAIN FINALLY BECAME USEFUL! Two teaming with their dad for last-ditch effort prize winners.

"The King of Hybern's corpse lay in the clearing, crows already picking at it. Nesta spat on it before we approached our father."


Nesta, babe, I love you so much. I’m so ready for your story. Are you death? Are youuu?

Amren is one of my favorite characters. She gives few fucks and is authentic to her core. She’s more selfless than she and others give her credit for, and I wish her all the happiness and fulfillment in her new form.

Tamlin’s quick redemption arc, ugh, whatever, thanks I guess.
Ianthe’s death was pure ecstasy.
Eris is another very intriguing character; is he also wearing a mask like the ones Rhys has had to wear?
The Suriel didn't die; I refuse to accept it.
Bryaxis is such a cutie; I want more of him.
The Nephelle Philosophy is beautiful and will stay with me.

They achieved what they fought so hard for, sacrificed so much for. I’m not crying, I’m balling.

"Leave this world a better place than how you found it."
A Court of Silver Flames by Sarah J. Maas

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5.0

"Never again.
She would never be weak again.
She would never be at someone's mercy again.
She would never fail again.
Never again, never again, never again."


This might just be my favorite book of the series. If there’s one thing SJM knows how to do, it's to write one hell of a healing journey.

Nesta’s story, her healing, her growth, was a gift to us readers. I’ve loved Nesta as much as I’ve loathed some of her actions from the very beginning, but to see her truly reach the lowest of lows, which seemed already very low in ACOFAS, and truly hit rock bottom and come out of it, was inspiring. The power of friendship, trust, and love saved her from herself and gave her life.
The determination to hit the 10,000 steps… you could not catch me attempting that.
Her love for music and dance was surprising for someone who has always been so reserved and reluctant to share any intimate part of her soul.
Sacrificing her power to save Feyre, Nyx, and Rhys was so Nesta, who she has always been. Finally being able to act in accordance with her heart, her inner self, showing it to the world made me very proud of her.

"The world was beautiful, and she was so grateful to be in it. To be alive, to be here, to see this."


Cassian is a teddy bear. I adore him. He showed more kindness, bravery, and cleverness than I was expecting to read. And that filthy mouth of his, Mother above.
I wish we had learned more of his past, I feel like he mostly skimmed over what he’s had to live through, going over what we already knew.
The love he has for his friends, for his family, for his mate is unconditional and beautiful. He truly wears his heart on his sleeve and that might be his greatest asset, to freely show and be proud of his feelings. A secure man.
The empathy he showed towards Eris in the end solidified the growth he gradually built throughout the story.

"There will be no one else. For either of us.
“Yes,” she whispered.
“Ever,” he promised.
“Ever,” she swore."


I absolutely reveled in reading their romance. The mating scene, the joining of their souls, was beautiful.
They fought, well, Nesta mostly fought, with herself to acknowledge their love, their bond. Cassian had to be brave to admit to her what he always knew and never shied away from, despite the fear of rejection and having his heart torn apart being a constant presence.
Different sides of the same coin.

"You are my mate, Cassian.”
“And you’re mine."


The Valkyries were an essential and amazing addition to the story. Without friends who had suffered from brutal pasts and could learn to heal alongside Nesta, this book wouldn't exist. Emerie and Gwyn made my heart warm. Brave, strong, kind, always there for one another.
True friends make life worthwhile.

"Friends who had become like sisters.
A chosen family.”

“I wish for us to have the courage to go out into the world when we are ready, but to always be able to find our way back to each other. No matter what."


The House was such a surprising element that I fell completely in love with. It took care of Nesta, soothed her, helped her even, specially, when she didn’t want to be helped, shared her love for reading, exchanged books, and became a friend, a big sister, and a mother. Home.
The scene when the House went along with all of their absurd wishes and exceeded their ridiculous demands even further, it was the fourth member of their sleepover.

"The House sings. I can hear it in the stone … you caused this house to come alive … you made the House."


Amren’s friendship and what it meant to Nesta was powerful to read. Her heartbreak over her past actions and being able to understand them and apologize for them were key parts of Nesta’s journey. She first accomplished the ten-thousand steps over it. As much as Amren is blunt and harsh with her words, her honesty, she’s not wrong. Without them, Nesta wouldn't have grown like she did.

"Keep reaching out your hand."


Nesta’s growing relationship with Az was also another positive surprise. She cared about him standing away from the family during Solstice, noticed why, and went up to him. What that action meant for Cassian was very touching.
Az’s Solstice gift to her was incredibly thoughtful, and Nesta’s reaction to it, hugging him in front of everyone, was wholesome.

”A home. The House of Wind, Velaris, this
court … they were her home.”



PS: I was extremely disappointed with Feyre’s pregnancy, the girl is barely what 22? Has had to endure and overcome and sacrifice so incredibly much in such a short span of time and now she’s a mother?? After saying she wanted to enjoy her life with her mate, for herself, travel and discover the world … so sooooo tired of motherhood always being the ultimate goal for women. That somehow without it their lives aren’t fulfilled. Ugh.


Tower of Dawn by Sarah J. Maas

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4.0

"Using the chair is not a punishment. It is not a prison," he said.
"It never was. And I am as much of a man in that chair, or with that cane, as I am standing on my feet."


I thoroughly enjoyed reading this book, which I honestly did not think was going to happen. I even skipped it the first time I read this series. Tandem reading was the encouragement I thought I needed, which very early on, stopped being the case at all.

Chaol finally grew on me. I've had such a layered relationship with him, stemming from his discrimination towards those with magic and the values he holds, well, used to hold, blindly.

“...the man he was becoming, turning into, after all of it.”


I think this quote best describes what it felt like reading Chaol’s healing journey, one he desperately needed, well before his injury. I've said it once and I'll say it again, Maas is a master at writing about overcoming one's inner struggles and fears. Learning to heal from them. She did it with Feyre, with Nesta, and I'm very glad to have read it through Chaol’s eyes.

“Your bravery, your cleverness, your unfaltering will... I do not have words for it, Yrene."


Yrene Towers was an absolute delight to rediscover. She's thunder and earth. Her temper was one of my favorite parts to read. Her fierceness, combined with her selflessness, her calling to help and heal those in need, despite, or perhaps because of her past, made her such a compelling character. Chaol certainly has a type, and I'm really happy they found each other. Their banter and bickering brought the story alive. Just like Aelin and Rowan, together they healed each other and came out stronger because of it.

“She would have an adventure. For herself.”


Nesryn is a gem. THANK FUCK she fought for herself and stopped accepting second-rate treatment from Chaol. She deserves to know her value and be the first choice, romantically and in all other aspects. Her and Sartaq’s relationship being more tame in comparison was a good tactic, a slower, quieter, but not weaker, joining of the souls. Her last chapter put a huge smile on my face, I was so happy for her.

I really liked Borte, she was so fun to read. And her dynamic with Yeran made me giggle with my feet in the air. That boy is so whipped.

Lastly, Arghun was disappointing. I expected more cunning and wickedness from him. Regardless, I still hope he chokes on a sandstorm.
Kingdom of Ash by Sarah J. Maas

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4.0

I can’t formulate coherent thoughts.
A Court of Thorns and Roses by Sarah J. Maas

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3.0

1st read: 3 ⭐️
2nd read: 3.75 ⭐️


”Be glad of your human heart, Feyre. Pity those who don’t feel anything at all.”


Rereading this book has made me appreciate it much more than I thought I would. I enjoyed it a lot more than I did during my initial read. I was surprised to realize how much of the plot I had forgotten. It was as close to experiencing it for the first time as one could get, and I’m a sucker for such occasions.

Before anything, I would like to share how tired I am of hearing this book being compared to Beauty and the Beast. I think it deprives readers of experiencing the story for what it is, free of external influences.

Now, let me start out by pointing that a lot of valid criticism has been thrown at this book that I agree with.
The dialogue is weak at times (if you’re going to write sex scenes, do them well or ask an author friend for help), the riddle was an insult to anyone who doesn’t have a smooth silky brain, the disrespect towards concept is blatant, certain plot inconsistencies, etc.
HOWEVER, and keeping in mind that having read this series once before I’m biased, this is still a good book.

The pace feels slow despite so many things happening, but I’ve learned to enjoy it. I completely understand that it’s just incredibly boring to some; certain parts definitely were for me too.
The biggest shock was how bland Feyre came across this time around in contrast to her iron will, yet it made perfect sense. From her youngest age, she has been destitute not just of social rank but of love, happiness, and color. She grew up bearing the responsibility of her family’s survival on her shoulders, and she’s the youngest of them all. Her mother was nasty for that promise and her overall motherhood. Rot in hell.
She’s traumatized from beginning to end, so excuse her if she’s not the brightest, most badass heroine from the get go. But let’s not forget she, a human, saved them all. No one can deny her strength and resilience. She survived as best she could, and I’ll never not defend her for it.

Let’s talk abuse.
Anyone who genuinely loves Tamlin, please take a good long dive in the cold waters of the Titanic. This man wrote the book on Stockholm syndrome, time after time he showed how violent and uncontrollable he is. Displaying fits of rage that were as explicit as destroying an entire room or as subdued as simply and repeatedly drawing out his claws. Feyre became desensitized to her fear, she learned to expect it, to accept it, to deem it as normal because she’s human and he’s a High Lord, an entirely different species. How else could such a powerful being release his rage, poor TamTam dealing with so much, yes, he suffers too, his pain is very valid but never an excuse for such behavior! Never acceptable! This is the trap of the syndrome, you feel bad for him because he’s not all bad, no, when he’s good he’s very generous and caring. By providing for her family and assuring their security he conquered Feyre’s trust, by providing her an escape to her arduous past, he tranquilized her, and when you’ve already been through so much pain, you welcome serenity.
Their lack of chemistry is the root of their relationship. It comes off as easy, as the obvious and logical path (bonus for Tampon, it’s also the answer to his curse). Feyre already had a tendency to seek sexual pleasure or release as a coping mechanism, her doing so with Tampolin was like riding a bike. Give her a break.
This felt more like a lesson on how to recognize toxic relationship patterns than an indoctrination in romanticizing abuse. But everyone grasps things differently, I certainly did so when I was 21 and read it for the first time, it’s why the sequel is so detrimental.

As for Rhysand, no, his flagrant disregard for Feyre’s consent is not okay. It’s not acceptable. Just because I love him, it does not make it okay.
What I’ll give him, and if it’s hypocrite of me so be it, all his actions were calculated war tactics. He didn’t act repugnantly because it’s just who he is, he had to make extremely difficult choices to ensure victory. He behaved inappropriately, and again, not excusable but somewhat more justifiable, because if he didn’t everyone would have continued enslaved to Amarantha.
His private verbal cruelty towards Feyre was what snapped her out of giving completely into hopelessness, I wish he had done it differently, but he didn’t. It did, however, work.

What drove me to reread this series was ACOSF, I wanted to re-immerse myself in the universe in order to properly read it, as I had stopped at ACOFAS.
Nesta, as much of a raging, entitled, selfish bitch as you are, I love you so much. And can’t wait for your book.
Elain is as palatable as salt free bread, if she wasn’t mentioned again I wouldn’t care.
Lucien, ugh, I like to to dislike him I guess. He’s there.
The C*ck Down the Block by Amy Award

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1.0

I think I lost brain cells reading this, the writing was horrendous. I’m sorry.
Any Means Necessary by Lila Herron

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1.0

If I had a shot every time her big boobs were mentioned, I would have died from alcohol poisoning mid book.
There Are No Saints by Sophie Lark

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3.0

Well, here I am again, gobbling up another serial killer romance like a housewife with a pill addiction.

This book is my least favorite from Lark so far. It didn't capture me like her previous works have ([b: Minx|178794987] still has me in a chokehold). I had a tough time connecting with the characters. Usually, I adore the women Lark writes, but I found myself looking forward to Cole's chapters more, even though his ego tested my patience.

Nevertheless, I’m still reading[b: There Is No Devil|62907306] because I need to know what happens next.

The Devil's Keepsake by Somme Sketcher

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1.0

If I were the devil, I would be utterly embarrassed to be constantly compared to Lorcan Quinn.