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4.09 AVERAGE
4.09 AVERAGE
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And now I go forward, with my new mantra: Life is a gift and you still have it. Have the courage to be happy.
He’s crazy, and being sane, you will never understand crazy. Just give up. Live your life. You still have it. It’s a gift.
I have many women friends, and those deep relationships mean the world to me.
They told me that if I didn’t take the first drink, I wouldn’t get drunk. I
And now I go forward, with my new mantra: Life is a gift and you still have it. Have the courage to be happy.
He’s crazy, and being sane, you will never understand crazy. Just give up. Live your life. You still have it. It’s a gift.
I have many women friends, and those deep relationships mean the world to me.
They told me that if I didn’t take the first drink, I wouldn’t get drunk. I
challenging
dark
tense
fast-paced
Content Warnings
Graphic: Alcoholism, Death, Murder
dark
emotional
informative
reflective
sad
medium-paced
This is a strong look into the life of someone who was close to Ted Bundy while he was killing. It's also a strong look into how Bundy manipulated the women around him through love-bombing and false promises.
My only criticism that lowered the rating a touch is that the timeline is sometimes a little hard to keep track of, particularly in terms of when Bundy was killing. Kendall writes from the perspective of what she knew in a particular moment, but it might've helped with clarity if she'd made a note when a murder occurred, rather than examining those moments retrospectively near the end.
That said, the docuseries Kendall worked with (Ted Bundy: Falling for a Killer) does do a good job of establishing a timeline, so I found that helpful to watch after reading, both for the timeline and for the visuals.
My only criticism that lowered the rating a touch is that the timeline is sometimes a little hard to keep track of, particularly in terms of when Bundy was killing. Kendall writes from the perspective of what she knew in a particular moment, but it might've helped with clarity if she'd made a note when a murder occurred, rather than examining those moments retrospectively near the end.
That said, the docuseries Kendall worked with (Ted Bundy: Falling for a Killer) does do a good job of establishing a timeline, so I found that helpful to watch after reading, both for the timeline and for the visuals.
dark
emotional
fast-paced
challenging
dark
sad
tense
fast-paced
For those of you who know me, you are all aware that I have an almost sick fascination with serial killers and true crime in general, for the rest of you, now you know.
I was searching for this book almost manically. It isn’t available in any of the libraries in my area and it is out of print everywhere online. It currently sells on ebay for $2000. Yes, it is that precious and people are now looking for it more than ever, all because of the recent Ted Bundy movie, Extremely Wicked Shockingly Evil and Vile.
I found this book by accident on Reddit as I was browsing on the app. There was this guy who posted the link from his google drive account. I was ecstatic. I don't know where he found it but the book is all scanned and in perfect image quality.
Now, why this book is so wanted and popular: Elizabeth Kendall was Ted Bundy’s former girlfriend. They were in a relationship from 1969 up until 1976. This book is her memoir.
While reading her story, I came to like Bundy as he first appeared to Kendall. He was kind, loving, caring, a real sweetheart if you will. He was amazing with her and with her daughter, helping Kendall around the house, cooking romantic dinners and even dropping her to work and her daughter to daycare. He was all a woman would want from a man.
Kendall on the other side, had just gotten out of a divorce, which wasn’t a good thing back then, had her own insecurities and came from a conservative family. She was careful about who she went out with, her daughter was her priority and moving to Seattle, despite the difficulties, she went by.
It wasn;t long before she fell deeply in love with him. I mean who wouldn’t? They didn’t live together, as Bundy kept his room in the University District but most nights he would spent the nights at her apartment. Thinking about it, Bundy really helped her find a better apartment, praised her achievements at work and supported her emotionally but it was he who needed financial support as he was a University student.
Kendall even though she proved to be really clever and had the ability to put 2 and 2 together, she was really blinded in the beginning. A lot of reviews on Goodreads criticize her that she was plain stupid and that she didn't use her eyes to see the situation she was getting in, but it is extremely difficult to see through the work of a psychopath, especially when the person involved is infatuated with said psychopath.
Bundy changed his behavior abruptly. From faithful to Kendall, he suddenly wanted to see other women as well but he would become very angry if Kendall wanted to do date other men. He never really lost his temper, he was always calm which was really scary. Then 2 girls disappeared at Lake Sammamish.
Bundy changed completely. He didn't come over as often as before, he was agitated and cried more than before. Yes, he cries quite a lot in the book, which could be interpreted as seeking his victim’s pity. I noticed the pattern of crying, whenever he wanted to avoid a question or a situation. Bundy was cunning.
Kendall on the other side was hooked on him. Despite him being a kleptomaniac and blaming this behavior on his poor family (he was embarrassed his family was middle class), he started having multiple relationships with other women in other states. Kendall found out about this but she still couldn't leave him. He had such a tight grip on her. Sweet words and poems and romance was what he was serving her whenever she threatened him with a break up. She was becoming obsessed with him, with the idea of spending the rest of her life with him.
Kendall was clever though. As the suspect description hit the news, she started questioning herself about Bundy’s whereabouts on the day of the disappearances, she looked at the similarities between Bundy and the suspect description on the newspapers. She called the police, she went through his things. All the time doubting even her own self about it, thinking she has lost her mind and how could a nice guy like do things like that. She was embarrassed that she thought of it.
Then things started going south when she got into contact with the police. She was an emotional wreck. She couldn’t believe what the police investigators told her but at the same time she kept seeing him and giving him the benefit of the doubt because he was confessing how much he loved her and how he couldn’t live without her, that he wanted to be with her forever and he would never love another woman. It was only her for him, no one else, even though he avoided getting married to her. Kendall was going crazy and at the same time she turned to alcohol to ease her pain and erase her constant thoughts.
I don’t find her weak or stupid at all, unlike some other people. This is how psychopaths work. This is what they do. They make you depend on them by encouraging you, by supporting you and when you try to get away, the say that you are paranoid, that you have flaws, that you are overreacting. They make you question your own existence. The have a way of making you addicted to them. Ted Bundy has been dead for the last 30 years, yet there are girls out there that have no idea who he is and what he has done. There are fewer people out there that know about his deadly charm and crazy mind games.
Psychopaths, killers and other offenders don’t appear with red eyes and sharp teeth in the dark. They are everyday people, like you and me. They work silently, they drive you crazy, they make you believe that all of your suspicions are just stupid games your anxiety plays with you. They elevate themselves by shoving you down to the ground. This memoir, this story its a reminder that it can happen to anyone.
As Kendall went back and forth with herself about whether or not Bundy was the killer, so many women have done the same about their partners cheating, hiding money, sexually abusing others etc. Psychopathy and manipulation is something most of us are capable of and unfortunately, people are using it.
I feel that this story should be read by everyone out there but especially women. It is a strong lesson that when intuition, when your gut tells you that something is wrong, it usually is. It is a chilling story of a woman who faced evil in the eye and survived, scarred but she did survive.
I was searching for this book almost manically. It isn’t available in any of the libraries in my area and it is out of print everywhere online. It currently sells on ebay for $2000. Yes, it is that precious and people are now looking for it more than ever, all because of the recent Ted Bundy movie, Extremely Wicked Shockingly Evil and Vile.
I found this book by accident on Reddit as I was browsing on the app. There was this guy who posted the link from his google drive account. I was ecstatic. I don't know where he found it but the book is all scanned and in perfect image quality.
Now, why this book is so wanted and popular: Elizabeth Kendall was Ted Bundy’s former girlfriend. They were in a relationship from 1969 up until 1976. This book is her memoir.
While reading her story, I came to like Bundy as he first appeared to Kendall. He was kind, loving, caring, a real sweetheart if you will. He was amazing with her and with her daughter, helping Kendall around the house, cooking romantic dinners and even dropping her to work and her daughter to daycare. He was all a woman would want from a man.
Kendall on the other side, had just gotten out of a divorce, which wasn’t a good thing back then, had her own insecurities and came from a conservative family. She was careful about who she went out with, her daughter was her priority and moving to Seattle, despite the difficulties, she went by.
It wasn;t long before she fell deeply in love with him. I mean who wouldn’t? They didn’t live together, as Bundy kept his room in the University District but most nights he would spent the nights at her apartment. Thinking about it, Bundy really helped her find a better apartment, praised her achievements at work and supported her emotionally but it was he who needed financial support as he was a University student.
Kendall even though she proved to be really clever and had the ability to put 2 and 2 together, she was really blinded in the beginning. A lot of reviews on Goodreads criticize her that she was plain stupid and that she didn't use her eyes to see the situation she was getting in, but it is extremely difficult to see through the work of a psychopath, especially when the person involved is infatuated with said psychopath.
Bundy changed his behavior abruptly. From faithful to Kendall, he suddenly wanted to see other women as well but he would become very angry if Kendall wanted to do date other men. He never really lost his temper, he was always calm which was really scary. Then 2 girls disappeared at Lake Sammamish.
Bundy changed completely. He didn't come over as often as before, he was agitated and cried more than before. Yes, he cries quite a lot in the book, which could be interpreted as seeking his victim’s pity. I noticed the pattern of crying, whenever he wanted to avoid a question or a situation. Bundy was cunning.
Kendall on the other side was hooked on him. Despite him being a kleptomaniac and blaming this behavior on his poor family (he was embarrassed his family was middle class), he started having multiple relationships with other women in other states. Kendall found out about this but she still couldn't leave him. He had such a tight grip on her. Sweet words and poems and romance was what he was serving her whenever she threatened him with a break up. She was becoming obsessed with him, with the idea of spending the rest of her life with him.
Kendall was clever though. As the suspect description hit the news, she started questioning herself about Bundy’s whereabouts on the day of the disappearances, she looked at the similarities between Bundy and the suspect description on the newspapers. She called the police, she went through his things. All the time doubting even her own self about it, thinking she has lost her mind and how could a nice guy like do things like that. She was embarrassed that she thought of it.
Then things started going south when she got into contact with the police. She was an emotional wreck. She couldn’t believe what the police investigators told her but at the same time she kept seeing him and giving him the benefit of the doubt because he was confessing how much he loved her and how he couldn’t live without her, that he wanted to be with her forever and he would never love another woman. It was only her for him, no one else, even though he avoided getting married to her. Kendall was going crazy and at the same time she turned to alcohol to ease her pain and erase her constant thoughts.
I don’t find her weak or stupid at all, unlike some other people. This is how psychopaths work. This is what they do. They make you depend on them by encouraging you, by supporting you and when you try to get away, the say that you are paranoid, that you have flaws, that you are overreacting. They make you question your own existence. The have a way of making you addicted to them. Ted Bundy has been dead for the last 30 years, yet there are girls out there that have no idea who he is and what he has done. There are fewer people out there that know about his deadly charm and crazy mind games.
Psychopaths, killers and other offenders don’t appear with red eyes and sharp teeth in the dark. They are everyday people, like you and me. They work silently, they drive you crazy, they make you believe that all of your suspicions are just stupid games your anxiety plays with you. They elevate themselves by shoving you down to the ground. This memoir, this story its a reminder that it can happen to anyone.
As Kendall went back and forth with herself about whether or not Bundy was the killer, so many women have done the same about their partners cheating, hiding money, sexually abusing others etc. Psychopathy and manipulation is something most of us are capable of and unfortunately, people are using it.
I feel that this story should be read by everyone out there but especially women. It is a strong lesson that when intuition, when your gut tells you that something is wrong, it usually is. It is a chilling story of a woman who faced evil in the eye and survived, scarred but she did survive.
For those of you who know me, you are all aware that I have an almost sick fascination with serial killers and true crime in general, for the rest of you, now you know.
I was searching for this book almost manically. It isn’t available in any of the libraries in my area and it is out of print everywhere online. It currently sells on ebay for $2000. Yes, it is that precious and people are now looking for it more than ever, all because of the recent Ted Bundy movie, Extremely Wicked Shockingly Evil and Vile.
I found this book by accident on Reddit as I was browsing on the app. There was this guy who posted the link from his google drive account. I was ecstatic. I don't know where he found it but the book is all scanned and in perfect image quality.
Now, why this book is so wanted and popular: Elizabeth Kendall was Ted Bundy’s former girlfriend. They were in a relationship from 1969 up until 1976. This book is her memoir.
While reading her story, I came to like Bundy as he first appeared to Kendall. He was kind, loving, caring, a real sweetheart if you will. He was amazing with her and with her daughter, helping Kendall around the house, cooking romantic dinners and even dropping her to work and her daughter to daycare. He was all a woman would want from a man.
Kendall on the other side, had just gotten out of a divorce, which wasn’t a good thing back then, had her own insecurities and came from a conservative family. She was careful about who she went out with, her daughter was her priority and moving to Seattle, despite the difficulties, she went by.
It wasn;t long before she fell deeply in love with him. I mean who wouldn’t? They didn’t live together, as Bundy kept his room in the University District but most nights he would spent the nights at her apartment. Thinking about it, Bundy really helped her find a better apartment, praised her achievements at work and supported her emotionally but it was he who needed financial support as he was a University student.
Kendall even though she proved to be really clever and had the ability to put 2 and 2 together, she was really blinded in the beginning. A lot of reviews on Goodreads criticize her that she was plain stupid and that she didn't use her eyes to see the situation she was getting in, but it is extremely difficult to see through the work of a psychopath, especially when the person involved is infatuated with said psychopath.
Bundy changed his behavior abruptly. From faithful to Kendall, he suddenly wanted to see other women as well but he would become very angry if Kendall wanted to do date other men. He never really lost his temper, he was always calm which was really scary. Then 2 girls disappeared at Lake Sammamish.
Bundy changed completely. He didn't come over as often as before, he was agitated and cried more than before. Yes, he cries quite a lot in the book, which could be interpreted as seeking his victim’s pity. I noticed the pattern of crying, whenever he wanted to avoid a question or a situation. Bundy was cunning.
Kendall on the other side was hooked on him. Despite him being a kleptomaniac and blaming this behavior on his poor family (he was embarrassed his family was middle class), he started having multiple relationships with other women in other states. Kendall found out about this but she still couldn't leave him. He had such a tight grip on her. Sweet words and poems and romance was what he was serving her whenever she threatened him with a break up. She was becoming obsessed with him, with the idea of spending the rest of her life with him.
Kendall was clever though. As the suspect description hit the news, she started questioning herself about Bundy’s whereabouts on the day of the disappearances, she looked at the similarities between Bundy and the suspect description on the newspapers. She called the police, she went through his things. All the time doubting even her own self about it, thinking she has lost her mind and how could a nice guy like do things like that. She was embarrassed that she thought of it.
Then things started going south when she got into contact with the police. She was an emotional wreck. She couldn’t believe what the police investigators told her but at the same time she kept seeing him and giving him the benefit of the doubt because he was confessing how much he loved her and how he couldn’t live without her, that he wanted to be with her forever and he would never love another woman. It was only her for him, no one else, even though he avoided getting married to her. Kendall was going crazy and at the same time she turned to alcohol to ease her pain and erase her constant thoughts.
I don’t find her weak or stupid at all, unlike some other people. This is how psychopaths work. This is what they do. They make you depend on them by encouraging you, by supporting you and when you try to get away, the say that you are paranoid, that you have flaws, that you are overreacting. They make you question your own existence. They have a way of making you addicted to them. Ted Bundy has been dead for the last 30 years, yet there are girls out there that have no idea who he is and what he has done. There are fewer people out there that know about his deadly charm and crazy mind games.
Psychopaths, killers, and other offenders don’t appear with red eyes and sharp teeth in the dark. They are everyday people, like you and me. They work silently, they drive you crazy, they make you believe that all of your suspicions are just stupid games your anxiety plays with you. They elevate themselves by shoving you down to the ground. This memoir, this story its a reminder that it can happen to anyone.
As Kendall went back and forth with herself about whether or not Bundy was the killer, so many women have done the same about their partners cheating, hiding money, sexually abusing others etc. Psychopathy and manipulation is something most of us are capable of and unfortunately, people are using it.
I feel that this story should be read by everyone out there but especially women. It is a strong lesson that when intuition when your gut tells you that something is wrong, it usually is. It is a chilling story of a woman who faced evil in the eye and survived, scarred but she did survive.
Thoughts on the new edition:
Those who know me are aware of my true crime obsession, especially when it comes to Ted Bundy.
This post is not really a review but rather my thoughts on this updated version.
Surprisingly, I found the main text of the book to be the same. There weren't any updates there. However, Elizabeth had added an introduction in which she self criticized her stupidity and naivete. I am always fascinated when people swear that they will never stop loving someone, never stop believing in someone, etc only to have a change of heart years later due to maturity, experience, reflection, etc. It's mesmerizing but also heartbreaking.
This updated edition also includes a chapter from her daughter which I am not going to spoil. It is heartbreaking and scary at the same time. One can only imagine what these women went through because of Ted Bundy.
The book leaves you with a bittersweet feeling. I definitely feel sorry for them and compassionate but then again, I feel like Elizabeth will never get over him, even though it's been 30 years since his execution.
If you haven't read this book, I think you should. It sheds a different kind of light on Ted Bundy and who he was when he did not kill people.
I was searching for this book almost manically. It isn’t available in any of the libraries in my area and it is out of print everywhere online. It currently sells on ebay for $2000. Yes, it is that precious and people are now looking for it more than ever, all because of the recent Ted Bundy movie, Extremely Wicked Shockingly Evil and Vile.
I found this book by accident on Reddit as I was browsing on the app. There was this guy who posted the link from his google drive account. I was ecstatic. I don't know where he found it but the book is all scanned and in perfect image quality.
Now, why this book is so wanted and popular: Elizabeth Kendall was Ted Bundy’s former girlfriend. They were in a relationship from 1969 up until 1976. This book is her memoir.
While reading her story, I came to like Bundy as he first appeared to Kendall. He was kind, loving, caring, a real sweetheart if you will. He was amazing with her and with her daughter, helping Kendall around the house, cooking romantic dinners and even dropping her to work and her daughter to daycare. He was all a woman would want from a man.
Kendall on the other side, had just gotten out of a divorce, which wasn’t a good thing back then, had her own insecurities and came from a conservative family. She was careful about who she went out with, her daughter was her priority and moving to Seattle, despite the difficulties, she went by.
It wasn;t long before she fell deeply in love with him. I mean who wouldn’t? They didn’t live together, as Bundy kept his room in the University District but most nights he would spent the nights at her apartment. Thinking about it, Bundy really helped her find a better apartment, praised her achievements at work and supported her emotionally but it was he who needed financial support as he was a University student.
Kendall even though she proved to be really clever and had the ability to put 2 and 2 together, she was really blinded in the beginning. A lot of reviews on Goodreads criticize her that she was plain stupid and that she didn't use her eyes to see the situation she was getting in, but it is extremely difficult to see through the work of a psychopath, especially when the person involved is infatuated with said psychopath.
Bundy changed his behavior abruptly. From faithful to Kendall, he suddenly wanted to see other women as well but he would become very angry if Kendall wanted to do date other men. He never really lost his temper, he was always calm which was really scary. Then 2 girls disappeared at Lake Sammamish.
Bundy changed completely. He didn't come over as often as before, he was agitated and cried more than before. Yes, he cries quite a lot in the book, which could be interpreted as seeking his victim’s pity. I noticed the pattern of crying, whenever he wanted to avoid a question or a situation. Bundy was cunning.
Kendall on the other side was hooked on him. Despite him being a kleptomaniac and blaming this behavior on his poor family (he was embarrassed his family was middle class), he started having multiple relationships with other women in other states. Kendall found out about this but she still couldn't leave him. He had such a tight grip on her. Sweet words and poems and romance was what he was serving her whenever she threatened him with a break up. She was becoming obsessed with him, with the idea of spending the rest of her life with him.
Kendall was clever though. As the suspect description hit the news, she started questioning herself about Bundy’s whereabouts on the day of the disappearances, she looked at the similarities between Bundy and the suspect description on the newspapers. She called the police, she went through his things. All the time doubting even her own self about it, thinking she has lost her mind and how could a nice guy like do things like that. She was embarrassed that she thought of it.
Then things started going south when she got into contact with the police. She was an emotional wreck. She couldn’t believe what the police investigators told her but at the same time she kept seeing him and giving him the benefit of the doubt because he was confessing how much he loved her and how he couldn’t live without her, that he wanted to be with her forever and he would never love another woman. It was only her for him, no one else, even though he avoided getting married to her. Kendall was going crazy and at the same time she turned to alcohol to ease her pain and erase her constant thoughts.
I don’t find her weak or stupid at all, unlike some other people. This is how psychopaths work. This is what they do. They make you depend on them by encouraging you, by supporting you and when you try to get away, the say that you are paranoid, that you have flaws, that you are overreacting. They make you question your own existence. They have a way of making you addicted to them. Ted Bundy has been dead for the last 30 years, yet there are girls out there that have no idea who he is and what he has done. There are fewer people out there that know about his deadly charm and crazy mind games.
Psychopaths, killers, and other offenders don’t appear with red eyes and sharp teeth in the dark. They are everyday people, like you and me. They work silently, they drive you crazy, they make you believe that all of your suspicions are just stupid games your anxiety plays with you. They elevate themselves by shoving you down to the ground. This memoir, this story its a reminder that it can happen to anyone.
As Kendall went back and forth with herself about whether or not Bundy was the killer, so many women have done the same about their partners cheating, hiding money, sexually abusing others etc. Psychopathy and manipulation is something most of us are capable of and unfortunately, people are using it.
I feel that this story should be read by everyone out there but especially women. It is a strong lesson that when intuition when your gut tells you that something is wrong, it usually is. It is a chilling story of a woman who faced evil in the eye and survived, scarred but she did survive.
Thoughts on the new edition:
Those who know me are aware of my true crime obsession, especially when it comes to Ted Bundy.
This post is not really a review but rather my thoughts on this updated version.
Surprisingly, I found the main text of the book to be the same. There weren't any updates there. However, Elizabeth had added an introduction in which she self criticized her stupidity and naivete. I am always fascinated when people swear that they will never stop loving someone, never stop believing in someone, etc only to have a change of heart years later due to maturity, experience, reflection, etc. It's mesmerizing but also heartbreaking.
This updated edition also includes a chapter from her daughter which I am not going to spoil. It is heartbreaking and scary at the same time. One can only imagine what these women went through because of Ted Bundy.
The book leaves you with a bittersweet feeling. I definitely feel sorry for them and compassionate but then again, I feel like Elizabeth will never get over him, even though it's been 30 years since his execution.
If you haven't read this book, I think you should. It sheds a different kind of light on Ted Bundy and who he was when he did not kill people.
what's crazy is he's fuck ugly. i think i read the word "handsome" to describe him like 7 times in this book. and HE'S UGLY! anyway.. sorry for true crime brainrot on your feed..
challenging
dark
emotional
medium-paced