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Graphic: Ableism, Addiction, Adult/minor relationship, Alcoholism, Body horror, Body shaming, Bullying, Child abuse, Child death, Chronic illness, Death, Domestic abuse, Drug abuse, Eating disorder, Emotional abuse, Gore, Mental illness, Panic attacks/disorders, Pedophilia, Physical abuse, Rape, Self harm, Sexual assault, Suicidal thoughts, Suicide, Torture, Toxic relationship, Violence, Forced institutionalization, Blood, Vomit, Medical content, Kidnapping, Grief, Medical trauma, Car accident, Suicide attempt, Acephobia/Arophobia, Fire/Fire injury, Gaslighting, Abandonment, Alcohol, Injury/Injury detail
Graphic: Addiction, Adult/minor relationship, Child abuse, Child death, Chronic illness, Confinement, Death, Domestic abuse, Drug abuse, Eating disorder, Emotional abuse, Gore, Homophobia, Mental illness, Panic attacks/disorders, Pedophilia, Physical abuse, Rape, Self harm, Sexual assault, Sexual violence, Suicidal thoughts, Suicide, Torture, Toxic relationship, Violence, Forced institutionalization, Vomit, Medical content, Kidnapping, Grief, Car accident, Suicide attempt, Death of parent, Gaslighting, Injury/Injury detail
Graphic: Adult/minor relationship, Body horror, Child abuse, Child death, Chronic illness, Death, Emotional abuse, Mental illness, Pedophilia, Physical abuse, Rape, Self harm, Sexual violence, Slavery, Suicidal thoughts, Suicide, Torture, Toxic relationship, Violence, Forced institutionalization, Blood, Trafficking, Kidnapping, Grief, Suicide attempt, Injury/Injury detail
It is a very beautiful book... but I really hoped that at some point the misery will stop.
I had to buy an expensive tub of ice cream to cheer me up but even that didn't work. I couldn't eat the entire day.
I am really amazed with the profoundness and the accuracy of describing the thoughts and feelings of the characters.
Please do not read this if you're emotional or ever so slightly sad in your day to day life. This is emotional torture... I just hope the weeks will pass quickly and the memories will be erased or at least faded from my mind.
I love Willem, I love Jude, Harold, Andy; I could see all them clearly as I was reading, and even wihout seeing him, I was fascinated by Jude's beauty. I will always listen to the song: "Hey Jude" thinking of Jude St Francis 💔
Graphic: Adult/minor relationship, Child abuse, Death, Emotional abuse, Mental illness, Pedophilia, Physical abuse, Rape, Self harm, Sexual violence, Suicide, Torture, Toxic relationship, Violence, Trafficking, Grief, Car accident, Suicide attempt, Injury/Injury detail
P.S. please make sure to check content warnings from reviewers. The content warnings on the main StoryGraph page for this novel are lacking, and many people understate just how upsetting this novel can be.
Graphic: Adult/minor relationship, Child abuse, Cursing, Death, Domestic abuse, Emotional abuse, Mental illness, Pedophilia, Physical abuse, Rape, Self harm, Sexual assault, Suicidal thoughts, Suicide, Toxic relationship, Violence, Grief, Suicide attempt, Death of parent, Fire/Fire injury, Dysphoria, Injury/Injury detail
Moderate: Addiction, Chronic illness, Drug abuse, Drug use, Eating disorder, Racial slurs, Sexual content, Terminal illness, Torture, Medical content, Kidnapping, Religious bigotry, Car accident, Toxic friendship
Minor: Child death, Vomit, Stalking, Death of parent, Alcohol
Graphic: Adult/minor relationship, Child abuse, Chronic illness, Death, Domestic abuse, Eating disorder, Pedophilia, Physical abuse, Rape, Self harm, Sexual assault, Sexual violence, Suicidal thoughts, Suicide, Torture, Toxic relationship, Violence, Medical content, Trafficking, Grief, Medical trauma, Suicide attempt, Injury/Injury detail
Moderate: Addiction, Cursing, Drug abuse, Drug use, Car accident, Toxic friendship
Minor: Child death
Graphic: Addiction, Adult/minor relationship, Body shaming, Child abuse, Death, Domestic abuse, Drug abuse, Drug use, Eating disorder, Emotional abuse, Mental illness, Panic attacks/disorders, Physical abuse, Rape, Self harm, Sexual assault, Sexual violence, Suicidal thoughts, Suicide, Torture, Blood, Medical content, Dementia, Trafficking, Grief, Medical trauma, Car accident, Suicide attempt, Outing, Abandonment, Injury/Injury detail
Graphic: Ableism, Addiction, Adult/minor relationship, Alcoholism, Body horror, Child abuse, Child death, Chronic illness, Confinement, Cursing, Death, Domestic abuse, Drug abuse, Drug use, Emotional abuse, Gore, Mental illness, Pedophilia, Physical abuse, Rape, Self harm, Sexual assault, Sexual violence, Suicidal thoughts, Suicide, Torture, Violence, Forced institutionalization, Blood, Vomit, Medical content, Trafficking, Kidnapping, Grief, Medical trauma, Car accident, Suicide attempt, Abandonment, Alcohol, Injury/Injury detail
Der Schreibstil an sich ist ganz nett. Das Buch selbst finde ich aber aus vielerlei Hinsicht grässlich bzw. eine Zeitverschwendung. Die Geschichte ist, inhaltlich, unbewegt. Es endet, wie es anfängt. Jede der Figuren wurde in die Welt gesetzt, um aufgegeben zu werden. Jede Entwicklung, wenn es denn eine gab, wurde schlussendlich rückgängig gemacht, zumindest was die Hauptfiguren betrifft. Es kam mir vor, als wäre es schlechthin verboten, dass die Geschichte einer einzigen Person ein positives Ende nehmen dürfe.
Daraus würde ich eigentlich schließen, dass die Geschichte Hoffnungslosigkeit ausdrücken soll, die Hoffnungslosigkeit einer Person, die im Suizid endet. Dem ist jedoch nicht wirklich der Fall. Es werden im Verlauf, gerade Richtung Ende die Wünsche, die Innersten des Protagonisten verwirklicht und das Ergebnis ist dasselbe. Würde ich als suizidale Person dieses Buch lesen, würde es mich von einer einzigen sChe überzeugen. Es kann schlichtweg kein positives Ende für mich geben, es gibt keinen Ausweg, ich bin verloren. Denn selbst die Figuren, die zum Schluss nicht o. nicht durch ihre eigene Hand sterben, dürfen partout nicht glücklich sein (keiner bekommt sein happy-end, nicht einmal in kompromierter Weise).
Das Buch empfinde ich als Hassrede auf das Leben, die Gesellschaft und ihre Instanzen und die Welt im Generellen, keinesfalls als eine literarische Bereicherung, geschweige als lit. Meisterwerk.
Ich wollte bis zum Schluss nicht aufgeben, aber die Geschichte wollte sich einfach selbst ruinieren.
Graphic: Death, Pedophilia, Rape, Self harm, Suicidal thoughts, Suicide, Torture, Toxic relationship, Blood, Vomit, Suicide attempt, Gaslighting
Graphic: Body shaming, Bullying, Child abuse, Death, Eating disorder, Emotional abuse, Mental illness, Panic attacks/disorders, Pedophilia, Physical abuse, Rape, Self harm, Sexual assault, Sexual content, Sexual violence, Suicidal thoughts, Suicide, Torture, Medical content, Kidnapping, Grief, Medical trauma, Car accident