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A great, easy read.
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this left me feeling empty inside lol
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“Trust me to take trying to feel better to death’s door.”

“It was times like this when the haze was deepest that I could imagine my life wasn't full of holes.”

“Reality is an acquired taste.”

“I used to want to be the only funny one, but at the ripe age of 24 I knew that it was better if everyone was funny.”

“Now all these years later, I’m certain that I got famous so I would not waste my entire life trying to get famous. You have to get famous to know that it’s not the answer, and nobody that’s not famous will ever truly believe that.”

I don’t really like to rate memoirs.

It was very interesting and my first memoir. I will be honest the timeline throughout the whole book was very confusing. There were times where I was like where was he in life during this time because he just jumped forward to COVID to back when he was shooting for friends. Very informative emotionally trying to understand the mental process of an addict. 

Really 4.5 stars. This is the most unflinching, vulnerable portrayal of the mind of addiction that I have ever read. I think it would behoove anyone who doesn’t believe addiction is a disease to read or listen to this, and in that way, this book is a gift. It is of course very sad, as we all know the ending of the author’s life, if not the book, but the book’s ending is hard-fought and earned. He is not always a likeable character, but his dark and dry humor is unique and made me laugh out loud at times. Though written in a way that is chronologically confusing and sometimes over-trod, I think it’s still a very worthy read for anyone going in knowing it’s mostly about addiction and recovery.
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