3.77 AVERAGE


I would have liked this one more if I had read it before “In Defence of the Act”. Two sisters struggling with their siblings suicide, however this one felt a bit flat and lacking the depth of IDOTA.

This hit hard for me as I can directly relate to the complex griefs of surviving sibling suicide and the transitions from childhood sibling codependence to adult disconnections (although not as a twin, and with my sibling roles having quite different dynamics). I'm not sure if I would have wanted to read this at any other time and, honestly, I'm not entirely sure if this is a five star book for me. But it is very, very real and quite beautiful in its depth and simplicity.

'what is worse? To have briefly been the tallest building in the world or never to have been the tallest because the building next to you was always slightly taller.'
emotional reflective medium-paced
Plot or Character Driven: Character
Strong character development: Complicated
Loveable characters: Complicated
Diverse cast of characters: No
Flaws of characters a main focus: Yes
dark reflective sad medium-paced
Plot or Character Driven: N/A

Unexpectedly beautiful

Willow. translated from Dutch
emotional informative reflective fast-paced
Plot or Character Driven: Character
Strong character development: Yes
Loveable characters: No
Diverse cast of characters: N/A
Flaws of characters a main focus: Yes

“To be a natural presence, you shouldn't take up too much space, which I always found easy at the beginning of a friendship. It felt nice to reshape myself into precisely the right format until the moment came, usually once I'd shrunk to my minimum size, when I got moody. I always have to be careful what I say around you, my friends would say. Or if I suddenly lost my temper over something that hadn't previously angered me, they'd say, I don't have enough space for this. Then I would know that my presence was no longer a given and it was all my fault — it wasn't fair to pretend I was something other than who I really was[.] I'm either too much or too little. I'm terrible at dispensing the right dose of myself.”

This was phenomenal. Adored the writing style and how sad it was. I love reading about grief, and I always say that!
dark emotional sad medium-paced
Plot or Character Driven: Character
reflective fast-paced
Plot or Character Driven: Character
Strong character development: Complicated
Loveable characters: No
Diverse cast of characters: N/A
Flaws of characters a main focus: Yes