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A Strange and Stubborn Endurance by Foz Meadows
38 reviews
hadleysunshine's review
emotional
mysterious
tense
medium-paced
- Plot- or character-driven? Character
- Strong character development? Yes
- Loveable characters? Yes
- Diverse cast of characters? Yes
- Flaws of characters a main focus? It's complicated
5.0
Content Warnings
Graphic: Self harm, Rape, Sexual assault, Homophobia, and Panic attacks/disorders
jg34's review against another edition
emotional
funny
mysterious
medium-paced
- Plot- or character-driven? A mix
- Strong character development? Yes
- Loveable characters? Yes
- Diverse cast of characters? Yes
4.5
Loved this! Vel and Cae are such a great couple and I loved the male friendship with Markel. Full of mystery and intrigue (but I was only there for the love story) beware there are quite a few tough themes so check the trigger warnings
Content Warnings
Graphic: Suicide attempt, Sexual assault, Sexual content, Rape, and Animal death
Moderate: Death, Panic attacks/disorders, Death of parent, Outing, Violence, Homophobia, and Blood
lettuce_read's review against another edition
- Loveable characters? Yes
4.5
Content Warnings
Graphic: Homophobia, Suicide attempt, Suicidal thoughts, Panic attacks/disorders, and Rape
Moderate: Animal death
morebedsidebooks's review
slow-paced
5.0
Content Warnings
Graphic: Suicidal thoughts, Rape, and Suicide attempt
Moderate: Vomit, Blood, Confinement, Homophobia, Animal death, Murder, Death, Violence, Panic attacks/disorders, Fire/Fire injury, and Sexual content
Minor: Death of parent, Ableism, Infidelity, and Misogyny
From the author: A Strange and Stubborn Endurance contains on-page depictions of rape, suicidal ideation, and self-harm. While the narrative arc is one of healing, readers should nonetheless be aware of this content in order to engage with it on their own terms.discarded_dust_jacket's review against another edition
challenging
emotional
mysterious
medium-paced
- Plot- or character-driven? Plot
- Strong character development? Yes
- Loveable characters? Yes
- Diverse cast of characters? Yes
- Flaws of characters a main focus? No
4.5
I was surprised by the language in this book when I first started, and was worried that it would force me to have to re-read over and over to grasp what was being said, but honestly, I grew accustomed to it pretty quickly. Eventually, I stopped noticing it altogether.
This is a beautiful story for a number of reasons. I appreciated the focus on healing from the trauma of sexual assault, and on letting go of learned lies about oneself and one’s worth. The relationship between Vel and Cae was so tender and sweet that it had me grinning so hard my face hurt on more than one occasion.
The politics in general, but especially where it pertained to the question of inheritance, kind of went over my head, but it didn’t cause me to enjoy the book any less. This was a treat to read.
This is a beautiful story for a number of reasons. I appreciated the focus on healing from the trauma of sexual assault, and on letting go of learned lies about oneself and one’s worth. The relationship between Vel and Cae was so tender and sweet that it had me grinning so hard my face hurt on more than one occasion.
The politics in general, but especially where it pertained to the question of inheritance, kind of went over my head, but it didn’t cause me to enjoy the book any less. This was a treat to read.
Content Warnings
Graphic: Death of parent, Sexual assault, Sexual violence, Self harm, Rape, Injury/Injury detail, Suicide attempt, Animal death, Blood, Death, Homophobia, and Outing
Minor: Vomit, Fire/Fire injury, Misogyny, Infidelity, Panic attacks/disorders, and Toxic relationship
robin1010's review
adventurous
emotional
hopeful
mysterious
tense
medium-paced
- Plot- or character-driven? A mix
- Strong character development? Yes
- Loveable characters? Yes
- Diverse cast of characters? Yes
- Flaws of characters a main focus? It's complicated
3.0
Rating might change later as I'm hovering between 3 and 4 stars for this book.
First and foremost, like a lot of other reviewers have addressed, there is a sexual assault scene and more than one scene of self-harm/suicidal intentions. There is a warning at the start of the book regarding these scenes. They're definitely very graphic, and if you're worried about them at all I would skip this book. That aside, even though the scenes were quite graphic, the author never used language that made them feel gratuitous, like a lot of the fantasy genre does.
I'll address the characters first. I liked Vel, most of the time he felt like a likeable and understandable character, and his eventual recovery felt realistic but also quite hopeful. The author also writes his intelligence well. I did feel that the mention of who he was in the past (very non-committal, party type) didn't really gel with how he acted in the present. While I understand he faced a major upheaval, his whole personality seemed more studious and responsible than the kind of person he was describing of his previous self. Cae honestly felt a little bit bland, most of his characteristics were very generically 'wholesome love interest', and I think he could have done with some more fleshing out, especially in terms of flaws. The moniker 'the Wild Knife' felt a little weird too. The side characters were by and large fun, I especially enjoyed the Yasa, as a powerful older woman isn't a character that often crops up in fantasy with the same subtleties. The addition of a non-binary gender and several non-binary characters treated with dignity and some amount of depth was also much appreciated.
The romance was decent enough, and the mutual pining was fun for the bits where it happened. I think it would have benefited from a slower burn, but that's more a general comment on the pacing of the book that I'll get into later.
The writing was honestly lovely, way above what I expected. There were several occasions where I just stopped to appreciate the prose. Environments and characters were described with detail, but not to a boring extent. The character's dialogue also felt natural but also suited to the setting, and most felt distinct from one another. The world building was worked in very naturally, for the most part, and there was only here and there an occasion of almost info-dumping.
The rest of this review discusses the plot.
The plot was honestly a little messy. The timeline was incredibly fast, with the events of the book happening over a number of days. I think the book could have used some slower pacing, even if just in the frame of time skips. Some bits showing actual down time without interruptions or with having Vel getting used to everything would have really helped, but instead every time we get a brief second of slower pacing there's an immediate urgent interruption. In more than one case this is a murder or attempted-murder, which becomes borderline comedic by the end. The plot events became formulaic: Normal, calm, possibly sweet moment between some combination of Vel and Cae, which was then jarringly interrupted with either a murder, attempted-murder, or someone here to deliver news of the investigations of said murders.
The way the author treated the suspects for everything was also very strange. They immediately introduced Laecia as a possible suspect, then spent almost the rest of the book trying to discredit her as a suspect, only to reveal that it was her all along. It felt very strange; why not leave the evidence of her competition for inheritance to the end? Or shroud it in more mystery and draw it out more than the reveal in a single paragraph? And after all that they discover her involvement entirely by accident.
Laecia's confession was so weird and disjointed, set up almost like the end of a Poirot novel, where everybody meets not once but twice to discuss all the events and the evidence and hear the murderer's monologue. It's also incredibly out of place outside of a detective novel - we get repeated instances of outright fast paced combat in this book but suddenly all the protagonists and antagonists are going to sit down and calmly explain their motives and methodology? In the first occasion there's a brief moment of tension where we think the protagonists might have to work with her as she's blackmailing them, but they immediately dismiss the threat and it has no hold over them. Why bring it up at all then? There were also several occasions of Laecia or another character actively explaining or monologuing the plot rather than letting it reveal itself naturally, which was very strange. The inclusion of Laecia's magic was an interesting choice, which I can't tell if I liked or not. On one hand it did make her an intimidating opponent, on the other hand I think I would have liked to see her use more political or social maneuvering to trap our protagonists, because we get far more exposition regarding her political ambition than her desire to do magic.
The whole plot/who dunnit was frustrating and unrewarding to follow, and more than once the only thing keeping me going through it was the hope that the author would masterfully tie it all together, which it didn't really feel like it did.
First and foremost, like a lot of other reviewers have addressed, there is a sexual assault scene and more than one scene of self-harm/suicidal intentions. There is a warning at the start of the book regarding these scenes. They're definitely very graphic, and if you're worried about them at all I would skip this book. That aside, even though the scenes were quite graphic, the author never used language that made them feel gratuitous, like a lot of the fantasy genre does.
I'll address the characters first. I liked Vel, most of the time he felt like a likeable and understandable character, and his eventual recovery felt realistic but also quite hopeful. The author also writes his intelligence well. I did feel that the mention of who he was in the past (very non-committal, party type) didn't really gel with how he acted in the present. While I understand he faced a major upheaval, his whole personality seemed more studious and responsible than the kind of person he was describing of his previous self. Cae honestly felt a little bit bland, most of his characteristics were very generically 'wholesome love interest', and I think he could have done with some more fleshing out, especially in terms of flaws. The moniker 'the Wild Knife' felt a little weird too. The side characters were by and large fun, I especially enjoyed the Yasa, as a powerful older woman isn't a character that often crops up in fantasy with the same subtleties. The addition of a non-binary gender and several non-binary characters treated with dignity and some amount of depth was also much appreciated.
The romance was decent enough, and the mutual pining was fun for the bits where it happened. I think it would have benefited from a slower burn, but that's more a general comment on the pacing of the book that I'll get into later.
The writing was honestly lovely, way above what I expected. There were several occasions where I just stopped to appreciate the prose. Environments and characters were described with detail, but not to a boring extent. The character's dialogue also felt natural but also suited to the setting, and most felt distinct from one another. The world building was worked in very naturally, for the most part, and there was only here and there an occasion of almost info-dumping.
The rest of this review discusses the plot.
The plot was honestly a little messy. The timeline was incredibly fast, with the events of the book happening over a number of days. I think the book could have used some slower pacing, even if just in the frame of time skips. Some bits showing actual down time without interruptions or with having Vel getting used to everything would have really helped, but instead every time we get a brief second of slower pacing there's an immediate urgent interruption. In more than one case this is a murder or attempted-murder, which becomes borderline comedic by the end. The plot events became formulaic: Normal, calm, possibly sweet moment between some combination of Vel and Cae, which was then jarringly interrupted with either a murder, attempted-murder, or someone here to deliver news of the investigations of said murders.
The way the author treated the suspects for everything was also very strange. They immediately introduced Laecia as a possible suspect, then spent almost the rest of the book trying to discredit her as a suspect, only to reveal that it was her all along. It felt very strange; why not leave the evidence of her competition for inheritance to the end? Or shroud it in more mystery and draw it out more than the reveal in a single paragraph? And after all that they discover her involvement entirely by accident.
Laecia's confession was so weird and disjointed, set up almost like the end of a Poirot novel, where everybody meets not once but twice to discuss all the events and the evidence and hear the murderer's monologue. It's also incredibly out of place outside of a detective novel - we get repeated instances of outright fast paced combat in this book but suddenly all the protagonists and antagonists are going to sit down and calmly explain their motives and methodology? In the first occasion there's a brief moment of tension where we think the protagonists might have to work with her as she's blackmailing them, but they immediately dismiss the threat and it has no hold over them. Why bring it up at all then? There were also several occasions of Laecia or another character actively explaining or monologuing the plot rather than letting it reveal itself naturally, which was very strange. The inclusion of Laecia's magic was an interesting choice, which I can't tell if I liked or not. On one hand it did make her an intimidating opponent, on the other hand I think I would have liked to see her use more political or social maneuvering to trap our protagonists, because we get far more exposition regarding her political ambition than her desire to do magic.
The whole plot/who dunnit was frustrating and unrewarding to follow, and more than once the only thing keeping me going through it was the hope that the author would masterfully tie it all together, which it didn't really feel like it did.
Content Warnings
Graphic: Sexual assault, Blood, Outing, Suicidal thoughts, Homophobia, Death, Injury/Injury detail, Self harm, Violence, Murder, Panic attacks/disorders, and Rape
tristinbooks's review against another edition
dark
mysterious
tense
slow-paced
- Plot- or character-driven? A mix
- Strong character development? It's complicated
- Loveable characters? Yes
- Diverse cast of characters? Yes
- Flaws of characters a main focus? N/A
3.5
Content Warnings
Graphic: Suicidal thoughts, Suicide attempt, Death of parent, Murder, Self harm, Rape, and Sexual assault
Moderate: Fire/Fire injury and Panic attacks/disorders
Minor: Animal death, Grief, and Classism
hwesta's review against another edition
adventurous
emotional
- Strong character development? Yes
- Loveable characters? Yes
- Diverse cast of characters? Yes
4.0
Content Warnings
Graphic: Violence, Death of parent, Death, Suicide attempt, Murder, Rape, Sexual content, and Suicidal thoughts
Moderate: Fire/Fire injury, Injury/Injury detail, Vomit, Blood, Animal death, Emotional abuse, Panic attacks/disorders, Toxic relationship, Self harm, and Grief
Minor: Alcohol
The book opens with one of the main characters being raped, but follows his healing in a supportive environment30something_reads's review
adventurous
challenging
emotional
tense
medium-paced
- Plot- or character-driven? A mix
- Strong character development? Yes
- Loveable characters? Yes
- Diverse cast of characters? Yes
- Flaws of characters a main focus? It's complicated
5.0
OFC it's ⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐
I loved everything. All of it. No notes. These boys are my favorites. Especially Markel ❤️.
I'll probably write a more thorough review later 😆
EDIT: 3/8 "a more thorough review"
This book truly put me through all the emotions. I cried, raged, laughed, swooned, kicked my feet and squealed in giddy delight. I left this story with so much love for these characters.
A Strange and Stubborn Endurance is a queer political and romantic fantasy with the central themes of healing and the role the family plays in that journey.
This book does not start off in a happy place. The author lists content warnings for on-page SA, suicidal ideations, and self-harm; all of which should be taken very seriously. The first portion of this book is very emotionally taxing but well worth it.
This is the story of Velasin and Caethari as they are brought together in a political marriage meant to strengthen the trade agreements between their respective countries. But mysterious forces are acting against their marriage- escalating attacks both political and personal. Together, they are forced to trust one another as they figure out who would benefit from this failed alliance. A tenuous friendship develops and slowly blossoms into something more.
I adored the world-building and the depictions of gender identity and sexuality. I love a world that embraces the spectrum so thoroughly and lovingly. In that way, it very much reminds me of Winter’s Orbit.
The characters were brilliant and the dual POV was wonderful (I especially enjoyed that it didn’t jump chapter to chapter but instead happened in sections.) I think that really allowed the author to develop Velasin and Caethari so fully. And I don’t think I’ve ever adored a side character the way I adored Markel. His friendship with Velasin was so touching and honestly brought happy tears to my eyes on multiple occasions.
The overall mystery was very compelling, and I never felt drawn away from that storyline with the blossoming romance between Vel and Cae. Everything fit so well together. I did guess the villains, but I think that was just due to well-placed clues and characterizations rather than any fault in the storytelling.
Honestly, I could rave about this story for ages. I am so beyond excited to know that this has a sequel coming out this year. I cannot wait!
I loved everything. All of it. No notes. These boys are my favorites. Especially Markel ❤️.
I'll probably write a more thorough review later 😆
EDIT: 3/8 "a more thorough review"
This book truly put me through all the emotions. I cried, raged, laughed, swooned, kicked my feet and squealed in giddy delight. I left this story with so much love for these characters.
A Strange and Stubborn Endurance is a queer political and romantic fantasy with the central themes of healing and the role the family plays in that journey.
This book does not start off in a happy place. The author lists content warnings for on-page SA, suicidal ideations, and self-harm; all of which should be taken very seriously. The first portion of this book is very emotionally taxing but well worth it.
This is the story of Velasin and Caethari as they are brought together in a political marriage meant to strengthen the trade agreements between their respective countries. But mysterious forces are acting against their marriage- escalating attacks both political and personal. Together, they are forced to trust one another as they figure out who would benefit from this failed alliance. A tenuous friendship develops and slowly blossoms into something more.
I adored the world-building and the depictions of gender identity and sexuality. I love a world that embraces the spectrum so thoroughly and lovingly. In that way, it very much reminds me of Winter’s Orbit.
The characters were brilliant and the dual POV was wonderful (I especially enjoyed that it didn’t jump chapter to chapter but instead happened in sections.) I think that really allowed the author to develop Velasin and Caethari so fully. And I don’t think I’ve ever adored a side character the way I adored Markel. His friendship with Velasin was so touching and honestly brought happy tears to my eyes on multiple occasions.
The overall mystery was very compelling, and I never felt drawn away from that storyline with the blossoming romance between Vel and Cae. Everything fit so well together. I did guess the villains, but I think that was just due to well-placed clues and characterizations rather than any fault in the storytelling.
Honestly, I could rave about this story for ages. I am so beyond excited to know that this has a sequel coming out this year. I cannot wait!
Content Warnings
Graphic: Misogyny, Rape, Murder, Outing, Panic attacks/disorders, Self harm, Sexual content, Suicidal thoughts, and Suicide attempt
Moderate: Gaslighting and Homophobia
Minor: Transphobia, Death of parent, Toxic relationship, and Violence
jessiereads98's review
adventurous
emotional
mysterious
fast-paced
- Plot- or character-driven? A mix
- Strong character development? It's complicated
- Loveable characters? Yes
- Diverse cast of characters? Yes
- Flaws of characters a main focus? It's complicated
2.75
This book has potential it just doesn’t live up to. I really enjoyed the romance between the two main characters as well as the characters themselves. Velasin’s journey of acceptance and healing is also well handled and realistic. However, I went into this book expecting politics to play a much bigger role than they did. This book is more of a mystery than a political fantasy. I was disappointed that magic didn’t play a bigger role throughout the book as well. There were also times where the prose and dialogue felt clunky, awkward, and out of place. The occasional lecture-like dialogue from Velasin just seemed out of place with the style of the rest of the dialogue and came across as the author spoon feeding us her point. I found myself getting bored in parts and think this could’ve been shorter. There was a lot of mentions of the moons and religion which didn’t really go anywhere, along with mentions of Velasin’s siblings which served little to no point. I wish we had heard more about Riya and Laecia or other present side characters which would’ve been more relevant to the story. I personally also found the ending disappointing. Unsure if I will pick up the sequel to continue with the characters and romance and see if the promise of politics develops more.
Content Warnings
Graphic: Animal death, Murder, Rape, Suicide attempt, Blood, Death, and Suicidal thoughts
Moderate: Violence, Panic attacks/disorders, Homophobia, Injury/Injury detail, and Confinement
Minor: Ableism, Alcoholism, Death of parent, Grief, Misogyny, Sexual content, Transphobia, Abandonment, Alcohol, Cursing, Fire/Fire injury, Medical content, Miscarriage, Sexism, Toxic relationship, and Vomit