Reviews tagging 'Panic attacks/disorders'

I Want to Die but I Want to Eat Tteokbokki by Baek Se-hee

25 reviews

superstar_y2k's review against another edition

slow-paced

2.0

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Content Warnings

Minor: Panic attacks/disorders, Suicide, Alcohol, Body shaming, and Fatphobia

kittkat's review against another edition

emotional reflective medium-paced

3.25

Ich fasse mich jetzt lieber kurz, als dass ich gar kein Review mehr schreibe.

Die Autorin hat Gespräche mit Ihrem Therapeuten aufgezeichnet und als Buch zusammengefasst. Zwischendurch wirft sie nach jeder Session = nach jedem Kapitel noch ein paar zusätzlich Gedanken rein und fasst zusammen, was sie aus den jeweiligen Sessions mitgenommen/ gelernt hat. 

• Schreibstil/ Ausdrucksweise war comme çi comme ça

Das Buch war zu ca. 80% aus Dialogen aufgebaut, aber mein Problem war, dass die Autorin (meiner Vermutung nach) die Dialoge abgeändert und komprimiert hat, weil dadurch die Gespräche sehr UNauthentisch waren. Die kurzen zusätzlichen Worte am Ende der Kapiteln haben mich oft aus dem „main narrative“ rausgeholt. Außerdem fand ich‘s sehr nervig, wenn sie bei den Dialogen aus der Vergangenheit noch Kommentare aus der Gegenwart in Klammern dahintergeschrieben hat wie z. B. „(I sound insane)“. Sehr unpassend. 

• „Main plot“ war interessant

 
Ich habe viel Neues gelesen und gelernt. Die Erlebnisse, über die sie erzählt hat, waren sehr persönlich, aber es ist wichtig, dass die Menschheit über solche „unsichtbaren Krankheiten“ wie diese chronische leichte Depression erfährt. 

• Das Ende = Der furchtbar lange Epilog aus 15 Teilen oder so war langweilig und ich habe den Bezug zum Rest des Buches nicht immer nachvollziehen können

• Ich konnte die Gedanken etc der Autorin oft nachvollziehen und verstehen, aber manchmal hat sie sich schon etwas unbeliebt gemacht. Wie sie ständig versucht hat, sich selbst mit versch. anderen mentalen Krankheiten zu diagnostizieren.

Alsooo auf jeden Fall ein interessantes Erlebnis, die Geschichte von Baek Sehee zu lesen. Den ersten Teil (80%) würde ich schon empfehlen und auch selbst nochmal lesen. Den Epilog fand ich etwas unnötig, das hätte sie besser lösen können. ABER benefit of the doubt: Vielleicht lief‘s ja in ihrem echten Leben ja auch nicht viel interessanter und es ginge gar nicht geschickter, VIELLEICHT :)

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Content Warnings

Moderate: Panic attacks/disorders

Minor: Suicidal thoughts and Toxic friendship

ellaticonstellation's review against another edition

dark hopeful informative inspiring mysterious reflective sad tense fast-paced

5.0

I liked this memoir. It opened my eyes to the Psychology of making choices; that how we see ourselves is reflected in how self-esteem we have. Confidence is a choice and having a middle ground is okay to not be tied to the extremes of black and white. Life is complicated and having just two choices didn’t make sense. Sehee, Unnie, thank you for sharing your life and experiences with us, it’s not easy, but you did it. This book opened my eyes to a lot of possibilities and realizing that I need to focus more on the positive side because negativity can ruin a person. Overall, I was enlightened by this book.

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Content Warnings

Graphic: Body shaming, Panic attacks/disorders, Toxic relationship, Gaslighting, Mental illness, Child abuse, and Emotional abuse

sarahsbooklife's review against another edition

relaxing slow-paced

2.25

It was an interesting book. There were some parts that I found myself connecting and sympathising with. 

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Content Warnings

Graphic: Mental illness and Alcohol

Moderate: Dysphoria, Body shaming, and Panic attacks/disorders

nurlou's review against another edition

challenging emotional hopeful informative inspiring lighthearted reflective sad tense medium-paced

• Plot- or character-driven? A mix
• Strong character development? No
• Loveable characters? It's complicated
• Diverse cast of characters? No
• Flaws of characters a main focus? It's complicated

4.75

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Content Warnings

Graphic: Mental illness

Moderate: Suicidal thoughts, Violence, Suicide, Child abuse, and Physical abuse

Minor: Panic attacks/disorders

dlsmk's review against another edition

reflective fast-paced

3.75

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Content Warnings

Graphic: Child abuse, Self harm, Suicidal thoughts, Toxic friendship, Toxic relationship, Emotional abuse, Alcoholism, Body shaming, Fatphobia, Mental illness, and Panic attacks/disorders

naomi_k's review against another edition

emotional reflective sad fast-paced

4.0

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Content Warnings

Moderate: Body shaming, Dysphoria, Mental illness, Alcoholism, Eating disorder, and Emotional abuse

Minor: Toxic friendship, Suicidal thoughts, Panic attacks/disorders, Domestic abuse, Toxic relationship, Classism, Bullying, and Sexism

tomoonarmy's review against another edition

dark emotional informative inspiring reflective medium-paced

5.0

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Content Warnings

Moderate: Mental illness and Grief

Minor: Alcohol, Emotional abuse, Toxic relationship, Body shaming, Gaslighting, Medical content, Panic attacks/disorders, Self harm, and Suicidal thoughts

travelseatsreads's review against another edition

adventurous challenging dark informative inspiring reflective sad slow-paced

3.0

 I Want to Die but I Want to Eat Tteokbokki is a part memoir, part character study and part 'what to avoid when looking for a therapist' guide. 

Within the pages Baek SeHee honestly and unreservedly gives the reader an insight both into her transcripts with her therapist but also more interestingly her thoughts surrounding these transcripts. Baek SeHee shares her ongoing issues with her mental health including issues surrounding self-esteem, body image, anxiety and depression. What I found fascinating was Baek SeHee's ability to portray the general malaise that can come with lingering depression, the feeling of absolute numbness and impassiveness that simultaneously exists with the innate longing for nice things and comfort. 

The book is at its best when Baek SeHee is discussing her thoughts, especially within the vignettes that make up the epilogue. The centre chunk of transcripts become quite repetitively irritating but that's solely down to a very lazy therapist rather than Baek SeHee herself. Reading those sections honestly felt like a guide of what to avoid in a therapist and I found them quite frustrating.

Overall I found it an enjoyable and interesting read but would have loved to see much more of Baek SeHee's own thoughts and writing. She's definitely an author I will keep an eye out for in the future.

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Content Warnings

Graphic: Mental illness, Body shaming, Fatphobia, Panic attacks/disorders, and Alcohol

Moderate: Lesbophobia and Suicidal thoughts

Minor: Sexual assault

calcifowl's review against another edition

reflective medium-paced

3.0

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Content Warnings

Graphic: Mental illness, Body shaming, and Fatphobia

Moderate: Emotional abuse, Domestic abuse, and Panic attacks/disorders

Minor: Suicidal thoughts, Homophobia, and Racism