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readerisha_'s review against another edition
3.0
**very controversial topic: suicide & self harm
it was heartbreaking. and all I can really say is the WORLD really sucks and people sometimes can be so evil.
it was heartbreaking. and all I can really say is the WORLD really sucks and people sometimes can be so evil.
gatoraly's review against another edition
1.0
Honestly this book was way to depressing to give it more than one star. It was well written and I liked Santana but everything else in it was to sad. Unfortunately its all too true and that stuff does happen everyday. I really feel terrible for the girl. People are reaching out to her so I was hoping she wouldnt go through it, but at the end when it said she was headed into the light it led me to believe she did kill herself. Now I need to go read a happy book to get all that sadness out of my mind.
abaugher's review against another edition
4.0
Like a series of gut punches, this story will take your breath away. Daelyn is determined to "complete" her suicide this time. This is not the first or second time she'll try it. Only this time, she's got the assistance of a website for "completers". And nobody, not her parents or a friendly girl at school or Santana, one very interesting homeschooled guy, is going to stop her. She is going through the light, leaving all the pain behind. And there's been a LOT of it.
So, how might her goal be derailed if, say, Santana cracks her shell? If she starts to feel something again? If she cares about someone? She can't let that happen.
FYI-If a person is contemplating suicide, they might like this book. Or not. If a person is not contemplating, they might like this book. or not. It is not a "manual" even if a person already has the intention. The ideas and bits of information Daelyn gets from the website are all products of her own thought processes.
What the reader might really get is how MESSED UP bullying is, and more people need to take a stand and put an end to it. If you see someone being bullied, and you aren't afraid to speak up (or even if you are), speak up! This books says enough is enough!
So, how might her goal be derailed if, say, Santana cracks her shell? If she starts to feel something again? If she cares about someone? She can't let that happen.
FYI-If a person is contemplating suicide, they might like this book. Or not. If a person is not contemplating, they might like this book. or not. It is not a "manual" even if a person already has the intention. The ideas and bits of information Daelyn gets from the website are all products of her own thought processes.
What the reader might really get is how MESSED UP bullying is, and more people need to take a stand and put an end to it. If you see someone being bullied, and you aren't afraid to speak up (or even if you are), speak up! This books says enough is enough!
oliviaskyec's review against another edition
dark
emotional
funny
hopeful
inspiring
reflective
sad
tense
medium-paced
- Plot- or character-driven? Character
- Strong character development? Yes
- Loveable characters? Yes
- Diverse cast of characters? Yes
- Flaws of characters a main focus? Yes
4.5
shawniebooks's review against another edition
4.0
I read this because it fit for a challenge as I normally wouldn't choose to read about bullying and suicide. I got hit over the head when we find out Santana . There are a lot of negative reviews regarding the ending. I found it fitting. It wasn't all wrapped up with a nice bow, but I read it as a new start for all the characters. In her 23 days on the Through the Light website, Daelynn was able to mentally and physically purge, enabling her to see a possible way forward with the help of the people around her, even though her intent was to die. I'm wondering if that is really the point of the website with the waiting period, daily questions, comment boards, etc... to be forced to face the hell you're in. The act of getting it all out, actually telling someone what happened, gave her a sense of empowerment, and encouraged her to stand up to the current bully.
Spoiler
has Hodgkin's lymphoma. I am currently in treatment for Hodgkin's. Needless to say, I was really rooting for him and his mom to have happy endings.stephxsu's review against another edition
5.0
BY THE TIME YOU READ THIS, I’LL BE DEAD tore my insides raw. As I read, I screamed. I cried. I threw the book across the room. I apologized and cradled it delicately in my hands. I also chuckled and fell in love with the characters, flawed as they all are. Julie Anne Peters is nearly unmatched when it comes to writing about difficult, taboo, controversial, and absolutely necessary subjects, and her latest book is a terrifying masterpiece that deserves to find its way into everyone’s hands.
Daelyn is not an easily likable protagonist. I hope to God that very few of us out there can actually understand where she is coming from, a dark and frightening world so terrorized, so beaten, so loveless that, for her, suicide is a form of salvation. And yet, as she slowly reveals to us her bullied past, we invariably find ourselves at once within her, shocked into silence at what we experience being her, and at her side, emotionally invested in attempting to give her hope. It’s a powerful duality of readers’ position that only the most skilled of novelists can achieve.
And indeed, Julie Anne Peters’ incredible writing skills are brilliantly showcased in this book. Daelyn’s voice is cynical and snarky without being overwhelmingly pity-inducing. Peters’ prose is short, to the point, and lyrically sweet. Sometimes succinctness is the greatest form of power.
I can’t end this review without pointing out how absolutely lovely Santana is—but I’ll let you find that out for yourself. Needless to say, I wish I could place a copy of this book into the hands of everyone between the ages of 12 and 18. Perhaps if everyone were allowed this candid look into Daelyn’s hurt, bullying and suicide—bullycide—would be hopefully less of a terrifyingly real problem.
Daelyn is not an easily likable protagonist. I hope to God that very few of us out there can actually understand where she is coming from, a dark and frightening world so terrorized, so beaten, so loveless that, for her, suicide is a form of salvation. And yet, as she slowly reveals to us her bullied past, we invariably find ourselves at once within her, shocked into silence at what we experience being her, and at her side, emotionally invested in attempting to give her hope. It’s a powerful duality of readers’ position that only the most skilled of novelists can achieve.
And indeed, Julie Anne Peters’ incredible writing skills are brilliantly showcased in this book. Daelyn’s voice is cynical and snarky without being overwhelmingly pity-inducing. Peters’ prose is short, to the point, and lyrically sweet. Sometimes succinctness is the greatest form of power.
I can’t end this review without pointing out how absolutely lovely Santana is—but I’ll let you find that out for yourself. Needless to say, I wish I could place a copy of this book into the hands of everyone between the ages of 12 and 18. Perhaps if everyone were allowed this candid look into Daelyn’s hurt, bullying and suicide—bullycide—would be hopefully less of a terrifyingly real problem.
jazzinbuns's review against another edition
5.0
I’m happy I read this.
It reminded me of when I was so close to that point, to ending it all. I look back on it and am able to be glad my attempt failed.
And it helped remind me that I’m not alone in what bullying, assaults, and harassment I endure.
It reminded me of when I was so close to that point, to ending it all. I look back on it and am able to be glad my attempt failed.
And it helped remind me that I’m not alone in what bullying, assaults, and harassment I endure.
blackcatreading's review
5.0
Reseña!
Autora: Julie Anne Peters
Título original: By the time you read this, I'll be dead
Puntaje: 5/5 ☆☆☆☆☆
TW: Suicidio, bullying, gordofobia, abuso sexual, enfermedades terminales, accidentes fatales y homofobia.
"All you can do is take it. No one understands how it beats you down." (P. 143)
No sabía de qué iba este libro, pero cuando lo tomé y supe que trataba de una estudiante con antecedentes de bullying e ideación suicida, no pude evitar que me tocará una fibra sensible (en mi práctica profesional me toca ver casos así) y quise leerlo para ver a través de los ojos de este personaje como luce el mundo con los lentes de las heridas y problemas de salud mental.
Lo primero que pude notar es que entre más hundida estaba la protagonista, menos empatía podía sentir por otros. Era dura en su forma de pensar hacía sus padres, pero era aún más cruel consigo misma.
[SPOILER] Fue triste y doloroso leer la escena de abuso sexual porque es muy real, sobre todo la respuesta del entorno social y familiar. Esperan que las víctimas de bullying, acoso, abuso y/o violación digan todo de una cuando se les pregunta, cuando en realidad es algo tan traumático que no pueden hablar. Y la gente, inconsciente de la gravedad del asunto, comenta antes de tiempo cosas que hacen más daño que otra cosa.
Me encantó el libro y como nos deja un gran aprendizaje sobre tópicos muy importantes y atingentes como son el bullying y el suicidio. Odio los finales abiertos, pero en este caso creo que era lo más correcto por hacer. El libro me deja con una sensación de vacío en mi interior, pero creo que es una gran pieza de literatura y que se hace muy necesario de leer para adultos involucrados en el sistema educativo o familiares de alguna persona que esté sufriendo de ideación suicida y/o bullying.
Para cerrar mi reseña, quiero traducir una opinión del libro dejada por beckylunatic el 11 de octubre del 2011: "Me pareció que el aspecto de la página web fue bien hecha con todos los JDoes estando demasiado atrapados en su propio dolor como para conectar con nadie más. Aislamiento total dentro de una comunidad." Y la opinión de Leanne del 10 de septiembre del 2017 (en Goodreads): "La persona que era antes ha desaparecido, se ha deshecho de todas las cosas de su habitación que le daban identidad. Esto la llevó a convertirse en una pizarra en blanco para empezar de nuevo y tal vez hacerlo mejor."
Autora: Julie Anne Peters
Título original: By the time you read this, I'll be dead
Puntaje: 5/5 ☆☆☆☆☆
TW: Suicidio, bullying, gordofobia, abuso sexual, enfermedades terminales, accidentes fatales y homofobia.
"All you can do is take it. No one understands how it beats you down." (P. 143)
No sabía de qué iba este libro, pero cuando lo tomé y supe que trataba de una estudiante con antecedentes de bullying e ideación suicida, no pude evitar que me tocará una fibra sensible (en mi práctica profesional me toca ver casos así) y quise leerlo para ver a través de los ojos de este personaje como luce el mundo con los lentes de las heridas y problemas de salud mental.
Lo primero que pude notar es que entre más hundida estaba la protagonista, menos empatía podía sentir por otros. Era dura en su forma de pensar hacía sus padres, pero era aún más cruel consigo misma.
[SPOILER] Fue triste y doloroso leer la escena de abuso sexual porque es muy real, sobre todo la respuesta del entorno social y familiar. Esperan que las víctimas de bullying, acoso, abuso y/o violación digan todo de una cuando se les pregunta, cuando en realidad es algo tan traumático que no pueden hablar. Y la gente, inconsciente de la gravedad del asunto, comenta antes de tiempo cosas que hacen más daño que otra cosa.
Me encantó el libro y como nos deja un gran aprendizaje sobre tópicos muy importantes y atingentes como son el bullying y el suicidio. Odio los finales abiertos, pero en este caso creo que era lo más correcto por hacer. El libro me deja con una sensación de vacío en mi interior, pero creo que es una gran pieza de literatura y que se hace muy necesario de leer para adultos involucrados en el sistema educativo o familiares de alguna persona que esté sufriendo de ideación suicida y/o bullying.
Para cerrar mi reseña, quiero traducir una opinión del libro dejada por beckylunatic el 11 de octubre del 2011: "Me pareció que el aspecto de la página web fue bien hecha con todos los JDoes estando demasiado atrapados en su propio dolor como para conectar con nadie más. Aislamiento total dentro de una comunidad." Y la opinión de Leanne del 10 de septiembre del 2017 (en Goodreads): "La persona que era antes ha desaparecido, se ha deshecho de todas las cosas de su habitación que le daban identidad. Esto la llevó a convertirse en una pizarra en blanco para empezar de nuevo y tal vez hacerlo mejor."
gfauquet's review against another edition
2.0
This book was way too graphic for me to feel good about recommending it to teens. The last chapter, while clever as an adult reader, was not clear and enlightening for students who might need that. Engaging read; want to read other stuff by this author.
lovesresqdogs's review against another edition
first book that i have not liked by this author