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Graphic: Gun violence, Rape, Sexual assault, Grief, Mass/school shootings
Moderate: Eating disorder
Biting. Unflinching. Gorgeously written. Daring to have an MC that is not the perfect victim and not even especially "likable". A bit harder to read after a ton of quick YAs and rom-coms, but beautiful. Complex would and did already recommend.
I disliked the main character immensely. I understand she had major trauma in her life as a teen. But this adult woman seemed to be stunted emotionally. She still acted like a 14 year old.
I also really disliked the way she was constantly starving herself to be thinner and degrading other people who weren’t thin. I’m tired of that trope.
I did enjoy learning about Ben and Arthur. I thought that was an interesting insight I haven’t read about before.
I don’t think I would recommend this book to people but I might still watch the film adaptation.
Moderate: Eating disorder, Racism, Rape
Minor: Drug use
Graphic: Bullying, Death, Drug use, Emotional abuse, Gun violence, Homophobia, Mental illness, Rape, Sexual assault, Sexual violence, Violence, Mass/school shootings, Suicide attempt, Toxic friendship, Alcohol
Minor: Excrement
The good:
- it's very hard to talk about
rape and sexual assault, especially as a survivor. So I definitely give the author her props for approaching both that and school shootings, and depicting them both realistically. - The story was incredibly engaging. Although the characters were largely unlikable and at times insufferable, the plot had me locked in and I couldn't wait to get to the bottom of Ani's story and understand why she turned out the way that she did.
- I think it was important to show characters like Ani's mother and
the planned parenthood nurse . Women who perpetuate patriarchy by dismissing, downplaying, and outright ignoring obvious abuse.
The bad:
- Right out the gate we are introduced to Ani's disordered eating, but at no point is it acknowledged as such, or as a thing for her to work on. Both times her best friend bright it up, she dismissed her and moved on.
- The plot with
the teacher was suuuuper unnecessary, and it was never acknowledged how creepy and inappropriate it was. - (A personal gripe, not so much a fault of the author.) I would have liked to see more of how
the documentary turned out and the fallout for Dean . I understand that Ani's closure came from the face to face acknowledgement of his crimes against her, but it would have been nice to see him finally lose.
Graphic: Death, Eating disorder, Fatphobia, Gore, Rape, Sexual assault, Sexual violence, Blood, Mass/school shootings
Moderate: Adult/minor relationship, Body shaming, Bullying, Cursing, Drug use, Gun violence, Misogyny, Vomit, Abortion, Suicide attempt, Gaslighting, Alcohol, Injury/Injury detail
Minor: Homophobia, Miscarriage, Panic attacks/disorders