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You Made a Fool of Death with Your Beauty by Akwaeke Emezi
26 reviews
sophiesmallhands's review against another edition
challenging
dark
emotional
hopeful
reflective
medium-paced
- Plot- or character-driven? A mix
- Strong character development? Yes
- Loveable characters? Yes
- Diverse cast of characters? Yes
- Flaws of characters a main focus? Yes
5.0
I’d heard great things about Akwaeke Emezi’s writing but mainly about their YA novels Pet and the companion novella Bitter. Since I downloaded Libby *angel choir noise* I was disappointed to not find the audiobook version of Pet on there but You Made a Fool came up instead. After briefly scanning the blurb, I decided to jump in. And oh, what a gloriously realised world Akwaeke has made.
The rub is that our artist MC, Feyi, is dipping her toes back into the dating scene after the death of her husband five years prior with the help of Joy, her chaotic, lesbian friend. After a brief but ends-as-friends- situationship with a man called Milan, Feyi begins a let’s-be-friends-first relationship with Nasir, one of Milan’s friends. Nasir, who comes from a VERY well-connected family, presents Feyi an opportunity to be a part of an exhibition of Black Diaspora artists. Fast-forward to Nasir taking Feyi to his gorgeous tropical family home (I’m not a visual reader, but I could SEE this house from Akwaeke’s descriptions!!) and to also meet Nasir’s equal parts rich and reclusive celebrity chef.
It sounds like the start to a very light-hearted tropical holiday romance, right? WRONG.
Nasir’s father, Alim, is like Feyi – a lonely widower – and Feyi experiences an immediate attraction to Alim that she tries to stifle and explain away as it existing because Alim is “unattainable” and, while she is technically not in a romantic relationship with Nasir, would be frowned upon.
I won’t spoil too much, but the story touches very deeply into the ways grief can change your soul and provide a bond between people – both romantic and platonic. The building relationship between Alim and Feyi (who are both bisexual!) is never presented as a titillating trope, but rather as two deeply injured humans navigating their trauma and grief and deciding to choose love as a way to move through life. There’s so much narrative freedom to Feyi – the story focuses so much Feyi allowing herself to be who she needs to be and without compromising her ideals or happiness.
The story gets quite intense around the time Alim’s children find out about this burgeoning romance (I had to turn my audio off at one point on the way home from work because it was stressful to listen to at that time), and the story could easily fall apart with various miscommunications but instead Akwaeke carries us safely to the story’s end. I could wax poetic about this book, but also! Joy being an incredible friend throughout this story? Feyi and Alim both being adults who actively go to therapy? All amazing to see in a contemporary romance novel.
Content Warnings
Graphic: Grief and Sexual content
Moderate: Death, Panic attacks/disorders, and Car accident
Minor: Biphobia, Domestic abuse, Death of parent, and Suicidal thoughts
tamaramo's review against another edition
challenging
dark
emotional
reflective
sad
tense
medium-paced
- Plot- or character-driven? A mix
- Strong character development? It's complicated
- Loveable characters? It's complicated
- Diverse cast of characters? Yes
- Flaws of characters a main focus? Yes
3.25
Content Warnings
Graphic: Grief, Blood, Death, and Car accident
Moderate: Injury/Injury detail, Sexual content, Panic attacks/disorders, and Death of parent
aformeracceleratedreader's review against another edition
medium-paced
3.5
I didn't love this but I did enjoy how it explored/handled finding love after losing someone. I also enjoyed how a big focus was discussing trauma that can negatively affect a relationship openly with someone whom you feel safe with/will understand and how being patient and understanding of that trauma can allow for a loving relationship to grow/thrive.
Content Warnings
Graphic: Blood, Panic attacks/disorders, Car accident, Death, Death of parent, and Grief
pia_h's review against another edition
dark
emotional
hopeful
sad
medium-paced
- Loveable characters? No
- Diverse cast of characters? Yes
It's a beautifully written, heart-wrenching novel but I didn't agree with its message.
Content Warnings
Graphic: Blood, Cursing, Racial slurs, Grief, Death of parent, Death, and Car accident
Minor: Alcohol, Violence, and Panic attacks/disorders
venetiana's review against another edition
challenging
emotional
hopeful
inspiring
lighthearted
reflective
tense
slow-paced
- Plot- or character-driven? Character
- Strong character development? Yes
- Loveable characters? Yes
- Diverse cast of characters? Yes
- Flaws of characters a main focus? Yes
5.0
Best book I've read in a long time. Sometimes I wanted to highlight All the Words, the writing is beautiful.
Very emotional (in a good way) and tender.
Very emotional (in a good way) and tender.
Content Warnings
Graphic: Car accident, Grief, Blood, and Death
Moderate: Death of parent, Homophobia, Misogyny, and Sexual content
Minor: Biphobia, Outing, Racial slurs, Toxic relationship, Dysphoria, Emotional abuse, Gaslighting, Incest, Infertility, Infidelity, Sexism, Xenophobia, Domestic abuse, Self harm, Homophobia, Alcohol, Drug use, Injury/Injury detail, Lesbophobia, and Panic attacks/disorders
aellwy's review against another edition
emotional
reflective
sad
tense
medium-paced
- Plot- or character-driven? Character
- Strong character development? Yes
- Loveable characters? It's complicated
- Diverse cast of characters? It's complicated
- Flaws of characters a main focus? Yes
4.25
Content Warnings
Graphic: Car accident and Grief
Moderate: Sexual content, Biphobia, and Death of parent
Minor: Panic attacks/disorders
This is a book about grief and is just as messy as grief is. It’s not for everyone and that’s okay. Emezi’s writing is as talented as every- brief yet deeply descriptive. Not my favorite piece of theirs, but a good summer read.fromthefoxhole's review
adventurous
emotional
inspiring
reflective
sad
tense
slow-paced
- Plot- or character-driven? Character
- Strong character development? It's complicated
- Loveable characters? It's complicated
- Diverse cast of characters? Yes
- Flaws of characters a main focus? Yes
4.0
Feyi lost her husband 5 years ago, and has been coming to terms with it ever since. One particularly reckless evening leads her to Milan, who leads her to Nasir, a sweet and charming man who offers to whisk her away to the Caribbean and get her art in front of people who could make all of her dreams come true.
She commits to going, just as friends, only to realize upon arrival that his "rich af dad" is actually celebrity chef, Alim Blake. Not only that, but there's something raw and magnetic between herself and Alim, which is less than conducive to her friendship with Nasir.
When an opportunity opens up to stay on the island longer to do a personal piece, she jumps at the chance, hoping that it will boost her bank account and give her a chance to spend some one on one time with Alim.
I gotta be honest, this book is MESSY but also incredibly captivating. I didn't really agree with many of the choices made by the characters, but I couldn't tear my eyes away from watching everything unravel. I particularly enjoyed Feyi's descriptions of grief, the way her art pieced together the immense love she carried with tragedy.
She commits to going, just as friends, only to realize upon arrival that his "rich af dad" is actually celebrity chef, Alim Blake. Not only that, but there's something raw and magnetic between herself and Alim, which is less than conducive to her friendship with Nasir.
When an opportunity opens up to stay on the island longer to do a personal piece, she jumps at the chance, hoping that it will boost her bank account and give her a chance to spend some one on one time with Alim.
I gotta be honest, this book is MESSY but also incredibly captivating. I didn't really agree with many of the choices made by the characters, but I couldn't tear my eyes away from watching everything unravel. I particularly enjoyed Feyi's descriptions of grief, the way her art pieced together the immense love she carried with tragedy.
Content Warnings
Graphic: Alcohol, Death, Sexual content, Blood, Grief, Car accident, Cursing, and Panic attacks/disorders
Minor: Biphobia
notapenguin's review
challenging
dark
emotional
hopeful
reflective
medium-paced
- Plot- or character-driven? Character
- Strong character development? It's complicated
- Loveable characters? It's complicated
- Diverse cast of characters? Yes
- Flaws of characters a main focus? Yes
4.5
Content Warnings
Graphic: Grief and Death
Moderate: Panic attacks/disorders, Blood, and Car accident
Minor: Sexual content
ecn's review against another edition
dark
emotional
hopeful
reflective
sad
tense
medium-paced
- Plot- or character-driven? A mix
- Strong character development? It's complicated
- Loveable characters? It's complicated
- Diverse cast of characters? Yes
- Flaws of characters a main focus? It's complicated
3.75
I think that I just need to come to the conclusion that I don’t really like romance stories. The writing was great bc it’s Emezi but the story just felt a bit to unrealistic and FAST. But also, nothing really happened throughout the book (and not in a slow burn kind of way for me)? I feel like I didn’t really get to dive into the grief of the characters and know anything else about them. And yea it was definitely a messy story but i did not find it to be as fun as others said BUT! I did like it more than I thought. And, not to to end on a petty note, but the pet names throughout just made me cringe :/ it was a bit too much from the get go and only got worse when it was the ONLY way the MC was referred to
Content Warnings
Graphic: Grief, Car accident, Death, Death of parent, and Sexual content
Moderate: Toxic friendship, Cursing, Biphobia, Suicidal thoughts, and Panic attacks/disorders
Minor: Violence and Blood
grets_reads's review against another edition
dark
emotional
hopeful
inspiring
reflective
sad
medium-paced
- Plot- or character-driven? A mix
- Strong character development? Yes
- Loveable characters? Yes
- Diverse cast of characters? Yes
- Flaws of characters a main focus? Yes
5.0
Content Warnings
Graphic: Death, Grief, and Car accident
Moderate: Domestic abuse, Mental illness, Blood, Sexual content, and Death of parent
Minor: Biphobia, Infidelity, Child death, Cancer, and Panic attacks/disorders