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Graphic: Gore, Physical abuse, Rape, Sexual violence, Torture, Violence, Blood, Stalking, Murder
Moderate: Confinement, Death, Domestic abuse, Drug abuse, Drug use, Panic attacks/disorders, Sexual assault, Torture, Injury/Injury detail
Graphic: Body horror, Confinement, Cursing, Death, Drug abuse, Drug use, Emotional abuse, Gore, Gun violence, Mental illness, Panic attacks/disorders, Physical abuse, Rape, Sexual assault, Sexual content, Sexual violence, Torture, Toxic relationship, Violence, Blood, Medical content, Kidnapping, Medical trauma, Stalking, Alcohol, Injury/Injury detail
Minor: Vomit, Trafficking

Nicolette was happy in her life as a high priced call girl. She got to explore her hedonistic desires and got paid handsomely for it. But her boss and ex-lover was about to shake up her world, call in that favor owed to her and put Nic directly in the pathway of four handsome mercenaries in hopes of digging up dirt on her current husband and dispose of him as all the others had been. Nicolette knows enough about her boss and her husband to be able to assist the men in their mission. But little does she know that a few of the men she already was well acquainted with. The tall, hulk of a man is one of her clients and the other with a sly grin is her roommate of a few months. It seems that these men had already been in her life in one way or another and now they were meant to share even more time together.
Along the way they also come in contact with Nic's very possessive stalker who will stop at nothing to have her for himself. But as feelings start to grow and Nic starts to wonder if she can have both her career and her relationships, she may be at risk of losing them off. Because her stalker isn't just sending love letters to her but also killing off his johns both present and past. Can the five navigate their growing attraction for each other as well as their mission to rid the world of Nic's boss's husband while Nic's stalker is also becoming a very deadly thorn in their sides?
This book is incredibly saturated with triggers so it is not for the faint of heart. The only other book I have read that had more triggers was one that had necrophilia. This one had a very small touch of that but it was more the non-con and dub-con that was the most prevalent. If you are easily trigger, you will definitely want to skip this one.
I struggled to get into the book as a whole. I am not a huge fan of relationships within the harem (IE: the men being with each other or them having sexual relations outside of the harem dynamic). So this was hard to stomach. Not only was their a relationship already established by two of the men but there were the possibility of more connections between the men and the fact that Nic was still active in her career as a call girl even after they had established they were together. This made the story a bit hard to stomach while also dealing with some very violent scenes.
However, the plot was intriguing. The reasoning for the husband needing to be knocked off and the role Nic's boss played in all of it was never really discovered. But the pursuit of information and the knowledge base that Nic provided for them was a great way for the characters to form connections.
The writing style, plot, and overall spicy-ness was what saved the story for me but it still wasn't at the top of my list of reads. It was middle of the road for me.
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I’m on the fence about this book. I’ll say off the bat that I definitely liked the book, but I didn’t love it like I thought I would when reading the blurb.
While I stayed up late reading it at the beginning, I found myself questioning whether I’d finish the series as I went on. And I can’t really pinpoint why. It might just be a preference of writing style. In theory, it has all the aspects that I love it a story - but it felt a little surface level and didn’t quite hit the mark for me. I don’t think I felt the level of connection between the characters that I hoped for.
What did I like? The story itself. The plot was solid, if not a little predictable. I loved the kinks, the queer representation, the sex positivity, and the gore. It’s definitely a dark romance, so check your trigger warnings. Tons of people really loved this series, so I say give it a go! I’m gonna dive into book two and see how I feel after that ending.
Nic is a brilliant female lead, so strong and so good at dealing with whatever situations get thrown in her face. Even when she's taken completely by surprise, she still thinks on her feet and does what she can to make sure she can get back out safely. The way she dealt with her boss and the guys (especially at first, when they were all so wary and so angry) it was just so amazing. She knew what she needed to do but she did it on her terms and made sure they knew it.
I will say I didn't much like what happened with her at the end, mostly because it felt horrible to have someone who already survived a horrific attack be kidnapped and imprisoned and violated and drugged over and over again--it just felt like /too/ much trauma for one person to handle and I wish she hadn't been put through that.
I did love the men in the story though. (Not Warren, obviously, I wish his death had been on page) Oliver is my absolute favourite, my beautiful bloodthirsty darling, I ADORE him. That scene with him and Bodhi and Nic in the warehouse after dinner with Maeve was just. So. Incredible. Blood play and knife play are terrifying to me but it was written so well and executed so well, I really wasn't expecting that. I adored Bodhi, too. It was so sweet the way he was slowly coming out of his shell around Nic and the way he's just as unhinged as Oliver, just in a slightly quieter way was so perfect. I do wish they'd stop calling Oliver 'Oli' though--I know it's a common nickname, I just kept misreading it as 'Oil' and it was lowkey disconcerting 3
I like Sacha and Vas, too but I hope we get to see more differences between the two in future books because in this one, they felt a little alike. Vas didn't start off feeling like a Sacha clone at first; in the first few chapters, he was pretty intriguing actually. And I really liked the way he was around Nic, pre-reveal anyway. Then both the brothers started behaving more similar and I was a bit disappointed. I did really like the kiss between Sacha and Bodhi though, I hope that leads to more in the future books.
(I also really really REALLY want more Emmerich, please let him be a bigger part in the sequels, he seems so interesting and so fun and I'd love to see more of his dynamic with Nic. I feel like we barely scratched the surface in this one.)
Yeah, this is definitely one of my favourite novels and I can't wait for book two.