3.41 AVERAGE


While I can say I couldn't put this book down, it was a very disturbing read about some pretty terrible young teenagers and the adults they have (or have not) become. The main character Ani seems to have all the traumas of her childhood wrapped up by the end of the story. And ultimately, she may be our heroine, she really is not very likeable either.

TRIGGER WARNING AND SPOILER: graphic school shooting

This author has been a cunt from the first page. Condescending and pretentious, I don’t even have sympathy for the SPOILER gang rape that is appatently the reason she turned into a vile bitch, but the transformation wasn’t believable.

Let's get down with My Ick List:

- The protagonist is named "TifAni FaNelli". Yes, TifAni. Who the heck in their right mind pick "TifAni" as a name??? Not "Tiffany", or "Tifani", but "TifAni", with a capital A put awkwardly in the middle EVERY SINGLE TIME???? Would there be someone named JesSica??? Or KathErine???? Uhhhhhhh this thing reeks of pretentiousness since the very first page. I HATE that the writer treats her readers like bunch of fools who wouldn't understand that "Ani" comes from the last part of "Tiffany" or "Tifani", so she felt like she had to put a weird capital letter in the middle.

- The writer, through the narrative, kept saying that Ani is talented, one of the brightest students, brave, and all kinds of praises but she never actually showed the readers all those traits. I mean, even in the flashback, schooldays chapters, when she was a student, we mostly are showed in great details about how Ani (then 'Tif') were busy trying to get noticed by her crush, ditching class, smoking pot, joining parties and after school hangouts, winning (and protecting) her spot on the Popular Kids' tables, and never... you know, actually studying or god forbid working on her education so that her so-called brightness is well justified.

Ani just sounds vapid to me. All the sneers toward women (and sometimes, men) and excessive pride on superficial things truly not helping her characters. At all.

- The book is FLOODED by brand names it feels like the floor directory of a mall to me. And here I thought [b:Crazy Rich Asians|16085481|Crazy Rich Asians (Crazy Rich Asians, #1)|Kevin Kwan|https://i.gr-assets.com/images/S/compressed.photo.goodreads.com/books/1364852559l/16085481._SY75_.jpg|21571970] was BAD. Apparently not. Luckiest Girl Alive just shot through the peak position.

Look, I know this book is based on the author's real experience, and I'm sorry that something so awful happened to her.
BUT—
This book feels like she was too busy doing too much of a self-insert to really care about Ani as a character.

My only justification for the two-star review is just this book isn't too hard to read quickly. Because you don't want to read a book that gives you both the ick AND the slog.

I loved this. I know everything is "the next Gone Girl" but seriously, this was very good and twisty in the same unpredictable way.

My main issue with the book is the person Tiffany turned herself into to change her life. I have met "Ani' a dozen times in my life and I despise that person so much that I ended up despising the main character. I couldn't feel empathy for her because she reminded me too much of people I used to know. Hardly fair for critiquing a book I know, but I just couldn't overcome it.

Dark, disturbing, sad and not quite sure about the ending but worth reading.

loved loved loved

3.5 stars. Super fast paced and I wanted to keep reading/keep learning the back story, but I never felt easy with the main character. I never knew how trustworthy she was or how trustworthy I was supposed to think she was, which kind of kept me off-kilter through the book. That being said, I ultimately liked her as a character and thought the plot was very compelling.

I thought this an awful book. The main character/narrator had zero dimension. In Fact, most characters fell flat as did the story line.

Not sure how I feel about it but it did compel me to read it quickly.