3.99 AVERAGE

emotional hopeful slow-paced
Plot or Character Driven: Character
Strong character development: Yes
Loveable characters: Yes
Diverse cast of characters: Yes
Flaws of characters a main focus: Yes

Really enjoyed her writing. Easy to read and heartfelt
dark funny hopeful medium-paced
Plot or Character Driven: Character
Strong character development: Complicated
Loveable characters: Yes
Diverse cast of characters: Complicated
Flaws of characters a main focus: Yes
emotional funny mysterious reflective sad medium-paced
Plot or Character Driven: A mix
Strong character development: Yes
Loveable characters: Yes
Diverse cast of characters: No
Flaws of characters a main focus: Yes

give this girl a journal
funny hopeful reflective sad fast-paced
Plot or Character Driven: A mix
Strong character development: Yes
Loveable characters: Yes
Diverse cast of characters: Yes
Flaws of characters a main focus: Yes
emotional funny medium-paced
Plot or Character Driven: Character
Strong character development: Yes
Loveable characters: Yes
Diverse cast of characters: N/A
Flaws of characters a main focus: Yes
challenging dark emotional funny hopeful mysterious sad medium-paced
Plot or Character Driven: A mix
Strong character development: Yes
Loveable characters: Yes
Diverse cast of characters: Yes
Flaws of characters a main focus: Yes

Emily Austin is becoming one of my favorite authors. This book is so, so funny, insightful, and uncomfortable in the best way. I wish I could go back to not having read it and read it again. 

“Sometimes when I’m driving, I think about veering into traffic. If I stand near the edge of anything, I think about stepping off. I can’t take a pill, clean with bleach, or use a knife without it occurring to me that I could end it”.

This book checks all of the boxes for me. I laughed out loud a ton listening to the audio and cringed plenty of times when it got too real. The story is all about Gilda, her anxiety-driven decisionmaking, and the wretched coil of existence that she can’t stop pondering. She is hyperfocused on mortality and what it means to be a person; she’s never not consumed by racing thoughts about her place on this floating rock. She is also a hypochondriac and has visited the ER so many times that even the janitor knows her on a first-name basis. But she is also painfully self-aware, and in an attempt to get help, she stumbles into a Catholic church advertising free therapy and accidentally ends up with a job, assuming the identity of both a heterosexual and a believer (you’ll come to realize she has no interest in either of these things).

Gilda is one of my favorite fictional characters ever, and her mind is just as entertaining as it is horrifying to be inside of. Emily Austin for sure gets it and I am all-in on whatever she puts out next. I loved this book SO much.

FFO: feeling personally attacked, laughing until you cry, crying until you laugh, self-awareness of your neuroses, contemporary existentialism <3

CWs: Suicide, addiction, mental illness, death, grief, homophobia
reflective slow-paced
fast-paced

Did I spend half of the time wanting to shake, kick and scream at her to snap out of the sloth, apathy and constant passivity with which she faced life? Yes.
Did I, the other half, want to hug her and tell her “everything is gonna be alright”? Also yes.

Read the TW, this book really triggered my intrusive thoughts.