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Mellors writes in the modern style, I first encountered when I read “Girl. Woman. Other.” It’s pervasive, a book on my tbr list, “I’m a Fan” is also written in a similar style. Morally grey characters who make morally ambiguous decisions. Cheat on their partners, humiliate themselves in public and are never sober.
I can never read more than a couple of these books a year. They’re too modern. I prefer confronting my emotions through several layers of illusion. This one, was brilliant however.
The characters are well-crafted, written with such empathy that it’s easy to see yourself reflected back in them, even the bad bits. Frank’s story particularly resonated with me.
Theme exploration in this book felt like a caress. It felt like someone had dug deep underneath my defences and helped rearrange things. Finishing this felt like I’d shaken something out of a favourite coat. I understand myself better now.
Graphic: Addiction, Alcoholism, Emotional abuse, Infidelity, Misogyny, Self harm, Sexual content, Suicidal thoughts, Suicide, Toxic relationship, Suicide attempt, Toxic friendship, Alcohol
Moderate: Sexual assault, Sexual harassment, Dysphoria
Minor: Animal death
Cleo and Frank have had a shit childhood and although they’ve 20 years difference their darkness pulls them together to try to make light. Green card or not Cleo loves Frank and a few months after they met they get married.
This is really a story about the group of people surrounding the recent couple and Cleo and Frank themselves, a story where the characters move the plot, which is a picture of addiction, pain, broken childhoods, depression and to be an adult filled with grief and confusion, to still be finding yourself, to realise sometimes it takes forever, the journey is it, sometimes it’s laugh, friends, finding a support system.
I did saw myself in the details of many of them and none.
It’s weird, it moved me but it didn’t fill me, maybe my own grief and depression made a barrier between me and this grief stricken story so I wouldn’t hurt - it’s been a rough year.
Still, loved it just not immensely.
Graphic: Addiction, Alcoholism, Animal death, Drug abuse, Drug use, Mental illness, Sexual content, Suicidal thoughts, Suicide, Death of parent, Abandonment
Moderate: Terminal illness, Forced institutionalization, Toxic friendship
Graphic: Suicide
Moderate: Self harm
Minor: Suicide
Graphic: Addiction, Alcoholism, Animal cruelty, Animal death, Drug abuse, Infidelity, Mental illness, Grief, Suicide attempt, Death of parent, Toxic friendship, Abandonment
Moderate: Sexual content, Suicide, Transphobia, Blood, Injury/Injury detail
Graphic: Addiction, Alcoholism, Drug abuse, Drug use, Suicide
there were aspects i liked: i thought the time jumps were handled very well, and i enjoyed the different perspectives (eleanor's sections in particular were *chef's kiss*). the last section is definitely the strongest, and the part that i enjoyed the most. it was nice to read a book where the characters end up happy.
however, there were also many issues. cleo veers dangerously into mary sue territory many times, and a lot of the conflict doesn't feel authentic - it feels like the author needed conflict but wasn't sure how to have it happen organically. some of the characters were little more than stereotypes and fetishisations and honestly made me feel icky to read. i also didn't enjoy the way mellors writes about sex, it just made me uncomfortable.
i think there's a 5 star story hiding in there somewhere, and honestly it makes me feel bad knowing that this book took 7 years to write because it does feel, more often than not, like someone crammed their essay the night before it was due.
3/5
Graphic: Suicidal thoughts, Suicide, Suicide attempt
Graphic: Sexual violence, Suicide, Suicide attempt
Graphic: Addiction, Alcoholism, Drug abuse, Emotional abuse, Self harm, Suicide attempt
Moderate: Suicide
Minor: Adult/minor relationship
Graphic: Addiction, Alcoholism, Animal death, Chronic illness, Cursing, Drug abuse, Infidelity, Mental illness, Self harm, Sexism, Sexual content, Suicide, Toxic relationship, Suicide attempt, Death of parent, Abandonment